Feeling nostalgic

Hi all :) I've been studying and I thought I would take a break from it. I was browsing on my Facebook history and I became very nostalgic when I discovered a note written by one of my past very close friend back when I was year 11 and he was year 12. Those who were long time loyal readers of my blog, you probably might remember a guy named Frank. In his note he wrote lots of memories with specific people from high school and from university. I was tagged in the note and in it he wrote:

"Those days in Kilmore, I chatted with Merry and shared the secrets between us.

How sweet we were!"

Oh gosh.. I rush of nostalgia went through my mind when I read that. We used to be THAT close? Seriously? Wow.. I have to be honest, I really miss those sweet memories.. In the present time, Frank is studying well and he even has a new girlfriend.. His life reached a new chapter and he is living off very finely - And I am very happy for him. But I don't know, I still feel very emotional for some strange reason!  Perhaps I miss those days where we could carelessly fall in love with anyone who made our heart feel warm... Perhaps I miss young love. I miss all those times where we shared our secrets and I still remember my heart fluttering every time I talked to him. Haha... Yeah, that's right, I shyly remember remember having feelings for my friend! Nevertheless, memories like these, I will always treasure them.. Even as my life progresses, I will keep precious pieces of memories in my heart forever. As for the future, I hope to find the guy who can make my heart flutter, not for a short time, but for the rest of my life. Someone who will look after my heart and keep it safe and warm :)

Talk to you soon bloggers.

x

KV Retreat

Hey all ! I just came back from a KV ( Key Volunteer ) Retreat from SLIM student life. It was definitely a trip that I will always remember and treasure. We did so much bonding activities and studied more about ministry. It was a very rewarding experience. So on Day 1, we focused more on the bonding of our fellowship. We started off with praying for each other and relating to the theme of "What would Jesus do" situation. Then we played a few games which involved strategic actions which was a lot of fun ! There was this game where we pretended that the rope was an imaginary electrical fence. And using team work, we had to figure out how to get to the other side without touching that fence. We had a few strong guys who lifted each other to the other side. And they let girls step on their thigh to get across.. When it was my turn, I felt so embarrassed because I'm so heavy LOL. Then we had some morning tea, and our lovely missionary leader gave us this really sweet gift:

Look at those cute cups!!! They even have our name decorated on them. So adorable. 

Next up we went to the local swimming pool, but I wasn't able to swim because I had no bathers and because of girl issues T.T WHYYYYYYY. I love swimming!!! Or at least having fun at the pool. Hahaha. But oh well.. At least it was nice watching my friends swim :) After we went home, we formed a circle and did a personality test. We had to choose traits that we felt were strongest for us and in the end, we were told what our personality is. I am MELANCHOLIC. Which means that I am apparently organised, cautious choosing friends and I tend to look at the negative side of things. There was a long description and I have to be honest... They were mostly very true. Now what I really took out of this personality test was that we shared with each other our traits. And this is very helpful because we could each see our strengths and weaknesses and thus, we got to know each other more closely which really helps us to encourage and support one another better.

Relationships:

Well during the trip, I got relatively close to this guy whom I shall code name him, "M4" . To be honest, when I first met him last year, I really didn't like him. To me, he was very loud, noisy and rude. But you know what happened during this trip? Man, fate does like to twist things around ! I was caught up in a train situation with him before the trip, then I was chosen as his "Guardian Angel" throughout the trip ! Like we had this game going on where each of us had a mortal and we had to be their guardian angel - So we had to be nice to them throughout the trip and give them a gift at the end. And I picked out his name out of the hat! Out of ALLLLL 12 people in the trip, I HAD to get HIM. Hoih. But anyways, I actually got to know him much better during these 2 days. Like in the past, I had only been observing him so in a way "Judging him". But since we got to do the personality test, it was revealed that his personality is Sanguine, which means that he is naturally a very humorous person... But in fact was supposed to be opposite to my personality lol! But anyways, we joked around alot and he turned out to be a fun guy. So yeah. It's good lah that I got to know people really well during the trip. I mean, God created us to have different personalities... So I guess the best way to accept everyone is to treat them with love :)

Talk soon bloggers,

x

Relationships; love; our soul mate?

I came across this really touching quote by Tim Keller which depicts what we should look for in a soul mate. Most of the times we are trapped in by good-looks and get hasty to get into a relationship with the person whom we desire to be with so greatly... But sometimes and unfortunately things go wrong and their real personality is revealed along the way, ending up with arguments and clashes. This quote however, based on the bible, tells how that friendship should be the key element before a steady and successful relationship and it's true! Think about it. When we are friends with a person and we have so much in common and we accept one another's personality, then our friendship will last a life time, correct? How much more beautiful if that true friendship blossoms into true love?  Have a read of this beautiful quote:

‘Suppose you have a very good friend of the opposite sex with whom you share common commitments and projects which excite you both far more than others. You trust their wisdom and share many intimacies without fear. They understand you well and give you great advice. But you think they don’t attract you romantically. Think carefully. The bible says our longterm relationships should be with those who are more than our best friend, not less. Our culture encourages us to screen first for romantic appeal and see friendship as a secondary benefit. The bible encourages us to think the other way round. Look for someone who understands you better than you do yourself and who makes you a better person. And then explore whether that friendship could become a romance or more. It can be surprising how the holy spirit can then take and develop your feelings for one another, when built on the foundation of friendship’.

— Tim Keller


Talk to you again soon bloggers,

x

Dreams and Friendship

Good morning lovely people! I was just trolling on Tumblr (which I hadn't visited for months!) and I came across a lovely blog called Pinkstrawberry with so many really pretty and inspiring images. Being the sucker that I am for pretty images, I saved a lot of them :p The one on the right is nice :) And totally true! Many people dream about what they're aspiring to become or what their dream goal in life is. Yeah that's great that we all have our own dreams, but sitting there in bed not doing anything about it isn't going to make it become true. We need to put a lot of effort and determination for dreams to work, don't you think? :) 

Moving along, do you guys still remember who M1 is? Well for those who do remember, our friendship is always going up and down. It wasn't the other week ago when we hung out. But for the past week, he's been silent and ignoring me.. Sigh.. But you know what? I'm gonna take it as a sign. Remember how I've once blogged about how friendships usually don't last forever? And for those that don't last, it's because God knows that they are of no use to make you grow into a better person anymore? Yeah maybe that's with M1. Anyways, we weren't meant to be more than bestfriends, so I'll leave it as that and I'll try not to be upset that he's ignoring me. Because anyway, I'm not really the one in loss if I think about it. I'll just treasure all the memories of friendship we had. Nevertheless, I still feel that it's unfriendly of a friend to suddenly ignore.. 

Next up, Uni is starting in a month! 4th of March. Still got some time left! I've missed uni so much. I actually MISS going to lectures and tutorials. But I certainly don't miss the bulk assignments they give us. Lol. Oh wells. Hahaha.

Talk to you later bloggers!

x

The Lord who strengthens me.

Hello hello! My break is almost over :( But I am looking forward to continuing the semester although I am aware that this is the busiest time of the year! Assignments and intense exam study due at the same time. So much to do, so little time! D: So I've spent my holidays going on various site visits for my environments group projects. I feel like a environmental manager because I have to evaluate the site, think about people's needs and norms, complexities of systems, but you know what? I don't think it's suited for me. I can imagine how stressed I would be if I were to be an environmental manager. There is so much critical thinking to do, a never ending list of tasks to be completed within a short time and a huge amount of group work involvement. It's been interesting to know how it feels like to be an environmental student, but now I know that it's not for me...

Moving on, I will be going to the Royal Melbourne Show with a few of my friends from Student Life! I'm going with Jeremy, Celine and Justin. It should be fun and I am hoping that the weather will be as beautiful and sunny as today! :D I can't wait to go on thrilling rides!! :O

Something I learnt this week was that depending on ourselves (i.e. Human strength and knowledge) is not sufficient. When we are trying to overcome a problem and use our human strength, most of the times we fail or we only partially complete it. Well that's what I have discovered about myself. I have been trying to overcome this problem of mine, and whenever I try to do it on my own, I fail most of the times. But now, I have discovered that by trusting in God, He will strengthen you and fix your problem. He will release all the problems burdening you. And He is the only one that can do that! It is really amazing seeing Him work through people in life! Very inspiring indeed.

Another thing I have learnt is that only God can be our faithful friend forever. The friendships that we have in this world can hurt us several times. Most of the times, if there is a clash between people, it can lead to broken hearts, scars, arguments and failing friendships. Different opinions and personalities can make us upset, frustrated and angry for being ignored or betrayed and it will only make us do bad things in order to feel satisfaction against that person! How awful. But you see, Lord Jesus will never disappoint us! He is always beside us, he is REAL and he even helps with deal with the issue. He will resolve our problems the correct way and will never betray us. Unlike humans who tend to feel tired if someone continues to cry in front of them and goes on about their problem to them, our Father is never like that! In fact, when we are weak and cry in front of him, he will comfort us and will never get tired of hearing our painful stories. Unlike humans, He will always be there for us. We can really feel His presence when we feel at peace and our tears are wiped away by Him. Our father is so loving that he strengthens us even in our weakest moments and I am so thankful to have Him. :') 

Mid Semester Break!

Hello hello! Sorry I haven't blogged in a while! My last uni weeks have been really hectic! :l and I've been sick too. Sorry~~~ But now I'm on break so I can do a little catching up. Although I've got heaps of assignments piled up. Hoih. 

University: Anyway, half the semester has passed and I must say that if I did not get involved with Student Life or Universe, I would probably be some stress head who has no life! University is all about balance between family, studies and social life. It's really hard sometimes but it's good to have it balanced because they even out and make life more enjoyable. Studying 24/7 isn't really healthy, and what I've found is the more I isolate myself from the world, I actually become less productive! So in the end, I take 5 times longer to complete something because along the way, all I did was grumble.. Hahaha. But if I take a few breaks every now and then to refresh my mind, I seem to do things quicker. Also the power of prayer is important! Without it, I wouldn't be where I am now.

Faith: God has really blessed me this semester, and I can see it through His works. He has answered a lot of my prayers and I feel more positive in life. Of course I am not perfect and I make a few mistakes every now and then, but the feeling that He will always be there beside me to guide me through life's toughest times, comforts me greatly.

Personal: This semester, I have definitely been exposed to so many new friends and guys! I have heaps of new friends whom are all Christian! And it's just really great to share our faith and love together. But speaking of guys and all.. M2 is trying to speak to me all the time. I don't know but I find it really ironic how at the beginning of the semester, he was so distant from me, and he never replied my texts... and now he is always like "kitty~~~" and I'm like... What do you want.... Lol. I mean I guess I got tired from being ignored. There are new people in my life and I'm not sure if I want to use the word "replace" , but I sure don't feel the same towards him anymore. I feel annoyed whenever I'm trying to study and he's always like bringing up the past memories of us.. which I don't want to dwell on anymore. I still reply to him of course, because I'm not that mean... but I am just less... Talkative with him. I still feel a lot of differences between us and he does say inappropriate jokes still.. so I dont have the motivation to be as close as we used to. Sorry.. I just had to let that out. :(

Now as for my love life. Hahahaha. Nothing too exciting has happened yet! :P Well there have been a few things that have happened between a few guys but man, I need to go now.. to a field trip.. and it will take me ages to write it all on here. LOL. Toodles x

Nearly there..

Hi ! Yay ! I passed another week of busy university life ! I think next week should be less busy and less stressful. But I need to study for my 2 biology mid-semester tests.. :( And I realised that my midsemester break is in ANOTHER two weeks ! Still so long away ! Huhu. Anyways, a lot of things have happened for the past 2 weeks... (Wait when did I last blog? Haha). There are many positive notes that have happened despite my busy schedule. 

Personal stories: Firstly, I have finally moved into my new home ! Well not technically... Because we haven't moved our heavy furniture in.. But still ! Now I don't have to wake up super early and whenever I come home late, my home is just 2 minutes away from the station~~ Compared to my last home, it was 20 minutes away. Haha. So yeah that's good for me. :D

University: Next, I was offered to be a 1st year representative for the Christian club - Universe ! Which means that in 3rd year, I will some what be one of the leaders !! Horray !! I am really excited, because I have a few ideas (maybe) about changing some of the current ideas. You see, there are 200+ of Universe members on FB, but only like 15 people (sometimes less!) actually come to the weekly meetings ! And most of them are regular attenders.. I am guessing that the others only attend the "English Classes" that Universe provides... Only to receive their own benefit. :\ SOO, I was thinking, although English classes is a good idea.. (helping others is always a nice thought) but that doesn't actually promote Christianity or letting people know more about God personally ! So hopefully, when I am an official member, I will try to let in some new ideas so that people actually COME to weekly meetings and become a FAMILY! Hahaha. I'm excited! And I am glad that God has used me to do this~

Secrets:

So, I was telling you the other time about a guy I met at a club... and I was interested in him because you know, he is older than I am, he's goodlooking, TALL and loves God. And you know, a lot of things have happened since then ! I saw him on FB right... But I didn't want to feel desperate, so I was just thinking to myself, if he wants to be my friend, he will add me first. And you know... the next day he did! :O Then I thought... Wait, FB friend adding is normal and nothing too special. If he is REALLY interested in becoming friends with me, he will say at least 2 sentences to me on FB. So I wrote on his wall saying hi and all.. and the next day, I found out that he wrote THREE sentences ! I was like whoahhh hahahaha. So I was pretty happy right~ Yesterday I was doing my assignment and I was logged on FB. Suddenly he said hi to me on chat! And we actually started talking a lot ! Except he was stressed out... and I was trying to give advice for him and he wanted some depressing songs from me :S hahahahaha. In the midst of our conversation, he wrote - "you are very pretty by the way". And at that moment, I was like OHHHHHH MYYYYYYYY GOOOODNESSS!!!!!!!!!!! And I started screaming inside my head hahahahahahahahahhahaha!! :D I was really happy and I still am :P And oh my goodness, I am going to meet him again in another 30 minutes !!! LOL.  This is the 3rd time a guy (who isn't a boyfriend) has told me that I was pretty ! :O :O I freak out every time too. Haha! I remember last time my Korean guy friend said - "You know you look amazingly beautiful" :O and wayyy back in year 10, a Chinese guy said - "You know, you will look more beautiful if you lost a little bit of weight" (Zzzz... I know... Can't believe he said that so bluntly. lol.) But anyways, TO ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE - Make a girl's day better by giving her a compliment to make her happy - AND MEAN IT !! :)

Anyways, there have been much more positive things that have happened this week, which made me realise, The more closer we are to God, the more blessings we will receive in our daily lives ♥(◦ˆ⌣ˆ◦)♥ Further more, I have learned to appreciate even the smallest things more than I have in the past... So in summation, life becomes more beautiful with Him!

That's all for now ! 

Talk to you soon xx