Today , my family had already planned to go out to the cinemas and watch toy story 3. and this morning (cuz i stayed up pretty late last night ... ahemm.... ) i was like... hoih..... *so lazy to get up*, but anyways, we finally all cleaned the house, got ready and left. And today, in the car, I realised that my brother always asks me to play "I Spy" or "guess who" in the car... like always. He always asks me in every car trip.. and its not that I dont wanna play with him... but i realised that i have come to an age where... i cant be bothered..... - -" little kids have just waaaay too much energy ... hahahaha . but i mean, common, who else thinks that playing those bus games takes too much effort?? hahaha :P but anyways... kasihan my brother...

so anyways! i knew that i would get a headache after watching a movie from the cinema ( - -" ) i decided to get prepared and drink lots of water before watching! i dont know if drinking fluids before watching a movie actually prevents people from getting headaches... but it worked for me today =D hahahah weeeee. and Toy Story 3 was awesomeeee! although it wasnt as funny as ice age three, i loved the story line :D and for ONCE my mum didnt fall asleep! hahahah (*see she always falls asleep during ANY movie! like i remember when we watched Shrek 3, and the whole room was laughing , and then beside me , you just hear my mum...... softly snoring away :\ hahahaha . shes so cute . n__n.

(my favourite part from ice age 3) :

See how important "language" is?

Sid: No wonder you're single, you don't communicate. I say they're vegetarian, you say "grrr". I say let's talk about it, you say, "grrr". That's not what I call communication.
Mother T-Rex: GRRRRR!
Sid: See that's your answer to everything!

So anywho, all my guy problems have all been solved right (about kevin) , and then now a new situation comes up. actually two situations. so im really close with this indo guy (*to ash, its : MR A) , but we never really discussed about our friendship ( not that its suppose to be normal to do so or whatever..) but last night he asked me , " Mer, so how are we so close? Like our friendship is so close even though you havent officially met me ." (what he means by that is , last time when i went to SMA warga, i visited his class but i never really got to meet him face to face . and what was surprising about this, is that this question triggered me. what did make our bond so close in the first place?? ....and its so weird. cuz for a sec, i had slight thump thumps, because i was quite .. wow at the fact that he actually noticed things between us. But anyway.. Then , this is when i started to analyse things . (HAHA! i am yet another victim of the IB! We over-analyse things too much! :P) . Then i figured, he is one of the first guys who is really enjoyable to talk to. meaning if i wrote alot, he wouldnt disappoint me with his response, because he would write alot too. and hes so funny . so i guess, my soul or whatever liked his personality so much until now , me and him are pretty close . but never the mind, he likes/sayangs another girl . thats another thing, we both give advice to one another. he tells me all his love girl problems , and i tell him mine. :) . wow i guess i could pretty much consider him as my brother or something :) or my guy best friend (apart from frankie of course xD) hahahah. but its sweet to have someone as nice is Aygiel . 

Anyway , my next situation is this, i kinda re-united with my old guy friend from indo the other day. and as we started talking , i asked him whether he was still dating a girl or not . and prior to this, he had been saying how much he misses me over and over again. and then , when he replied "if i say no, would you want to be with me? :) " and i was like . . .  0.o excuse me...? i mean before , we also had a close friendship , and yes i admit that before he used to like me ( unlike Mr A ) , but i never expected him to ... still say these things to me. and by the end of our sms message, he wrote .."i lop u mer". .... and i was even more............................. speechless. just totally speechless. so anyway , i didnt check my phone for a couple of hours and when i came back to check , i find a couple of messages from him , and he confessed that he still had feelings for me. he told me that he still cared about me.. but he doesnt want our friendship to get destroyed just because he reconfessed.. and now , this is my dilemma. i feel bad for triggering him to reconfess to me, and i also feel bad because i know that il never date him (because i dont have those feelings for him) , but i dont want to wreck our friendship either.. i told him that it would be better if we stuck to just being friends... and im just so wow at how long he has been waiting for me for. its been how many months since hes waited for? its been 7 months. thats like longer than kevin for goodness sake! so then his feelings must be true. -sigh- so then, what do you guys think i should do about this? i dont want to lead him on, but i also dont want to just ignore him and hurt his feelings ? :(