Yeah okay, my previous post was supposed to be posted up like a few days ago.. but I had been so lazy to finish up with i wanted to originally write up, so the ending isn't as what had actually happened.. but I just edited that post before writing this post, and right now I'm quite emotional, so I just didnt have that motivation to write the full details. You'll see why after this post. *sigh* so basically, you must all be curious about who I like right? It is quite obvious at times, but I've decided to put away paranoid thoughts about people gossiping about me . So nevermind. Basically, after all these times, I have really began to like him . Like every time we meet or walk past eachother, his smile would just make me smile . Every little nice thing he did to me made me happy. When we sat together on the bus, that was something major, cuz people even took pictures of us sleeping . But this is nothing compared to what happened last Sunday. David rang me and told me that he wants to invite me for dinner! Thats something. Then, he rang me a few hours later and we talked for 30 minutes or so , and had an actual general conversation. I was the happiest girl in the world, because first , he had the courage to even do those things, and secondly, it gave me new hope that it was positive that he liked me. I was so happy, because after all these times, after the break up between me and Kevin, i was so glad that i have found someone new in my life. I mean, that doesnt necessarily mean I am crazily in love with him, but i guess that this time  its just one of those typical teenage crushes, that causes your heart to skip a beat, every time you're near that special someone :)

                                    

The point is, its been quite some time that he has been giving me hope. Seriously, why would he do all that for me if he didnt like me in that way? He even gave me his jacket when i was cold on the bus, and wrapped it around me . But today, something that he wrote as his status, has changed my whole perception towards the way he treats me . I'm not going to state exactly what he wrote for privacy reasons, but it gave a great negative impact towards my feelings. My emotional state right now is so low, I feel like I've been used. I feel like I've been toyed around . I feel like I've been led on . And the final and worst, is that I feel like an idiot because this has happened to me twice now. He has done this to me before, last year . When he led me on, and I thought he liked me, but in fact, he liked another girl back in Hong Kong . I was so devastated last year and if I'm not mistaken, I think i cried as well.. So now you can imagine how I feel now. Like emma said, its so weird because we reached the highest point in our relationship and now, all because of that status,  its all shattered. I dont even know what to think anymore. Maybe I'm over-reacting. Maybe I'm being immature about this all. But what can one do, after finding out that the guy that you liked and has given you so much hope , (and all of the effort that both of you made to even get to this strong stage in your friendship), and even when it had reached to a point where you thought that something serious was about to strike, it all disappears in less than five minutes. -sigh- but oh well. This is reality . This aint no perfect love story that you see in movies. If he likes another girl, then so be it. If that status was for me, and how he wants to forget about me, then so be it. I'll just go under the blankets tonight and cry my heart out.

P.s - the second image that you see in this post, is dedicated to you. Yeah thats how i felt , but i wonder how it will be tomorrow when I see you again.

 Okaaaay! Although I'm so sick and my eyes are so weary and sore , I'm in a blogging mood because something exciting in my life happened yesterday for me! ^^ But I gotta finish my ski trip story first and i guess that this makes it the:

PART 3/3

So anyways, on the 3rd day (which makes it the 2nd day for the actual skiing part) , Ms Treanor gathered me, wilson and ellena to form a little mini group. and she lead us along another mountain called - "The Summit" . This mountain was wider but it was foggier than Big D. So anyways, we all followed her, but because I still hadn't gotten the real idea of how to steer and to snow plough (which slows your speed down), I kept on falling over. -_- but I was lucky because all of them were so supportive of me , and wilson took good care of me too ^^ so really, thank you to all of those who helped me get up after a painful crash ^^ . But anyways, I kept of falling over, but I didnt wanna give up.. but then , i kept on practicing to steer left (which i managed to figure out how to do!) and to steer right (which i kept failing) but i slowly got the hang of it when we nearly reached the bottom. But it was a shame, cuz Turtle saw me fall over, and although Ellena told him to help me, he never did, but instead, wilson always helped me .. so yeah .. i was quite disappointed so when i took off my skis and i saw him, i didnt talk to him.. and i walked back to the cabin alone... hahaha.... oh well nevermind... lol. After lunch, we had ski lessons again, and this time the different teacher was better than our first, like she made things clear. And then our school headed back to Big D , and this time Mr Settle was guiding me with ellena . And he told me off so many times....... but hey, by the end of the day, I knew how to ski like a mid-pro! without falling! and i had complete control over my speed and direction! And compared to the day before, me and ellena had done like 7 laps of skiing! :D wooo hooo! we got so excited and we actually enjoyed skiing that day! but also... this little kid skiied over my skiis... and i fell hard. like really hard. and i thought I died or something.. because I just kept rolling down the steepest hill and even people who were on the lift were shouting if i was okay or not , and these two workers came over to me and asked if i needed the ski patrol , but i said i was fine. i laid there in the snow for a couple of minutes because it hurt that bad. But anyways, i was prepared to face the ache the very next day.

T h e 4 t h D a y . I knew it . I just knew it! In the morning , my whole body ached like craaaaazy. TT . Like usually, i would be the second person to wake up after Yeon Ju , but that day, I felt so exhausted. My neck hurt so bad, and my legs felt like 100 x heavier!! *sigh* . but anyways, i got out of bed, ready for the day. Oooo and at breakfast, there was a seat next to me, and i wanted him to sit there, but then Abu sat next to me -_- haih... Anyways, when we started skiing , we went on the mini bus. and i sat by myself.. but then , he came towards me , and i was just like , omg... is he? ... and then he came a sat down right next to me!!! i was so happy! hehe . then we both planned to sit next to one another which just made me even happier . hehe .. Then for the rest of the afternoon until 1.30, we just skiied and i mostly hanged out with wilson :) It was quite fun that day .  Then when everyone went back to the rooms and packed up, me and my room mates were a bit late cuz we had to discuss about our missing key.... hoih... and then when i came on the bus, i found out that he had saved me a seat! ^^ thats so nice i him.. and finally, we arrived back in Kilmore after a 5hours trip..

.... Shall I really continue on from my previous post? :\

PART 2/3

okaaay! I will! Because I havent even gotten to the good part yet! :P hehe.
So anyways, during the ski trip, Ashley, Tambie and Emma assigned me with a mission. That mission was to get close to a certain guy and my first mission was to sit with him on the bus on the way to the ski trip. But as I said in my previous post, I sat with Wilson cuz *Turtle was already sitting with someone... and he saw me look at him and I dont know.. Did he feel guilty? guilty that us two didnt end up sitting with eachother? Although his friends and my friends were like... trying to get us together? hahaha. Anyways, on saturday (the second day), it was our first day to go skiiing. I was super nervous but excited at the same time. And also , cuz it was my first time, i was still unsure of what to wear... like how much layers I needed and so forth. In the end, I was freezing my ass off.. so my butt was frozen by the end of the day :( . Okay! So before we started to have ski lessons, we were allowed to play around in the snow :) hehe . And you know what happened....... David , Wilson, Leo , & Franco were like attacking me!! Especially David!!! He put snow in my face, on my back , on my neck!! Waaaaaaaahhhh!! So i was soo cold, and  And by the end of the day, I found out that this made my face irritated... *sob* . So on the very first lesson, we learnt very basic stuff... like how to slid along the ice... and how to VAGUELY turn left and right, and how to ski plough... (which was so dang difficult for later on!) . Then after lunch, our next session was to ski by ourselves at this mountain called "Big D" . and seriously, it was not funny about how fricken scared I was. I didnt know how to control properly, nor did I know how to stop. to make it more extreme, this "Big D" had several reaaally steep hills.

See how lovely and straight this scene is?
Well the steep cliff I am talking about is, just imagine to tilt
this photo an extra 45 degrees to the right.
THAT is how steep I am talking about.

So there i was. standing at the edge of the slope. I carefully slid along to push me down the hill and the next thing i know is that i see myself, flying past nond, shaun and marie. I was screaming my head off, gosh-knows how much kilometers per hour i was going. It was so dead scary, I seriously thought I was gonna die - from skiiing off the cliff. A few seconds later, I lost great control because of the dangerous speed I was uncontrollably doing, and I tumbled. And I crashed hard. Fell over my own legs. and thump, i landed into hard snow. I tell you, it was so painful and i was still under a panic attack. Once I had calmed down, I tried to ski again . (remember that all of this happened when i was alone... i had no partner...) , and then i crashed again. This time, i was so seriously depressed, i took off my skiis and sat under a tree- feeling so depressed i could almost cry and beg to come home. yes my butt was freezing cuz remember how i didnt wear enough bottom layers. and then dr.rutter saw me and she took a picture of me whiile i was depressed about not being about to ski and constantly crashing face first on the snow,, and she took that picture because she thought it looked nice, how i was under that beautiful tree. -____- . It was my first time going down this really dangerous mountain. How could teachers do that to beginners to fend for themselves??!!?!?. Then ellena somehow catched up to me, and she happened to be depressed also , for not being able to ski. So we went back up the lift (because we decided to do one more round. and at this stage, everyone else (intermediate people + ) had already done 10+ laps..... =___= . and then i when we were on that lift, we both regretted it. we were both still scared.. :( again , i dont even have to go into more details, but this time, when i went down that really steep mountain, i screamed 10x louder because i was going at a speed 10x greater than before.

Scary right?

Anyways, this post is to be continued again! hahahah..

PART 1/3

HI READERS :D Well this week, I just got back from the ski trip.It was a wonderful experience going there! On the first day, I was so nervous, it wasnt even funny. I held on to tambie, (who kept telling me that I will be fine) and I didnt wanna let go. I was so nervous about who i would hang out with etc etc... and then sokhom came along and i didnt wanna let go from both of them! I even told both of them what to do with my body if I faint....to tell my parents I love them.... my friends..... and to say sorry to every one... yes i was dramatic to the extreme, but i was THAT NERVOUS!!! I was at the verge of crying!!!  But eventually I had to.. because everyone was boarding ! Then I went on the bus, and thankfully wilson had a spare seat next to him. so i sat with him ^^ . At first i think both of us were so tired... and i was still over nervous... but then we began talking, and he told me the most hilarious story ever! He was telling me about his experiences on different airlines, and who he had to sit next to. I laughed so much cuz he told me about his experience sitting next to a fat woman. and then 1hr of the trip, he had to pee but she was in the way and happened to be sleeping. and his description was so funny!

 hahahaha.... anyways , then we all got to watch the movie - AVATAR - and i was curious to see why it got so many awards. But after watching it, I would rate it 5/5! It had such a great storyline! and was so dang suspenseful! hahahahha... i was like holding onto wilson , gasping what was to happen in the movie , and he just laughed at me........ hahaha..

At last, after a 5 hour trip in the bus, we finally reached Mt Hotham! There was so much snow everywhere , and i began to be nervous again.. and when we got out side to unload our luggage, it was so freeezing! hahahah. Then we got divided into our cabin groups and unpacked there, then went to bed. At the same time, Ashley and Tambie were spamming all over my status on facebook...... and their comments only consisted of - 'HAHAHAHAHAHA's .... -____- just no comment for both of them... hahaha... lol .


This post... is ...TO BE CONTINUEEEEED...... (because now i have to go to school...hahahah sorry)

Waaaaaaaaaahh!!! T^T me and ashhhh are sooo emoooo after doing the math test!!  So we decided to take emo pictures (which failed....) and my phone has a beep ater ever capture right... and we didnt realise that everyone else could hear it, cuz we thought that the beep was only in our headphones... and then we asked Tambie if she could hear the beep, and she said - "Yeahh... its loud." and then we were like ... our baaaad.... so then ashley wanted to test it out... so she took her headphones out and i took a picture.... and then the beep went and ash sank in her chair and said - y-yeahhhh... its really loud....." hahahahahahahahaha.... silly us! :P hehehe.... so embarrassing that everyone else in the library could hear..... hehe...

Holly Sugar Puffs!! OK. I just had a shock a few minutes ago. I just checked Kevin's facebook for the first time in weeks... or months now? lol.. and he has a new facebook profile pic! I was so shocked because he has never changed it... and I havent seen him for 6  months now, so it was just so wow... because yeahh.. i dont know what to say actually.. Alright moving on, tomorrow I'm going to the ski trip! I'm still as nervous as I first was.... but anyways, I guess I will survive... lol... haihhh.... im tired.. so I cant concentrate on blogging... I finished studying maths.... hoih.... il try my best tmorrow but yeah .. hopefully i will get a good mark :) Oh and today, I felt so bad... cuz my cupcake was upset in indo class... and just left the class as soon as bell went... so she didnt end up going to the Indo CAS class... and well .. class today was really awkward.. we had two new students (wilson and daniel) , and then in total, there was 7 in the class.. it wasnt as fun as the last two weeks since only me and fauzan were teaching... and malanu left (permanently to go to the philosophy class.. how could youuuuuu! :( sigh) and nond wasnt there, franco had to pack.... carmen wasnt there... joshua wasnt there.... abu wasnt there... so yeahh... me and fauzan didnt have anything to teach... so we ended up playing hangman.. which was quite fun (cuz fauzan made it fun by his usual silly personality :P hehe) ... but no high laughters like before... so sad... lol... anyways.... i better sleep... see you in a week when I come back!

p.s CUPCAKE - if you are reading this, please tell me that you have calmed down or not.. i was so worried about you this afternoon! :(

 WARNING - PLEASE BE PREPARED.

I would suggest that you should not read this if you are sleepy, tired, moody, pms-ing or stressed out, because -


THIS IS THE LONGEST POST ON MY BLOG - EVER!

Gooood Evening Peoples! :D

Im in a jolly good mooood just now!

Im like super wideeeee awake after being so sleepy just an hour ago (from doing mathhhh) . and yeahhhhh. hehehe . I just realised that my blog posts are like... not so "serious type" any more. They are more like me rambling about something.. that doesnt even make sense... but anyways! LOL . hahaha.  Me and ash concluded that nowadays we laugh alot, and all the credit goes to TAMBIYE!!! hahahahah. she has influenced us toooo muchhhhh! she has transfered her laughing personality onto us!!! LOL . but its not a bad thing, its just concerning that we are constantly laughing everyday!!! hahahahaa. about anything. 0_0 But i dont actually blame us for laughing.. because what we laugh at is actually funny... hehehe... like yesterday, me wilson emma and tambie were in the library talking about franco.. and then 10 seconds later, him and david entered the library , and wilson was like "Ladies and Gentlemen , let me present you, THE PROTAGONIST!" . and then, us three girls were laughing so hard, cuz the way wilson moved his arm and the timing was all so perfect. hehehe . then i was about to stop laughing , when i looked at tambie, who was still laughing , so i laughed even more, then she saw me keep laughing so she laughed louder, and the louder she laughed, the louder and longer i kept laughing and by the end of it, emma had stopped laughing like 10 minutes ago. hahahahahaha... :D :D :D but its fun laughing with my friends. it cheers me up from stressful times at schooool. well not so stressful, cuz im actually not that stressed this term... but maybe just so tired. :( huft. 

You know, tonight is such a contrast to last night. Because last night, I was so emo, it wasnt even funny. I've realised that I was lovesick , and everytime I thought of him, I felt sick and emo. :| Very strange, but true. And I miss talking to frankie.. i want holidays again, so that would be able to catch up and webcam or something! haih... ok ok changing the topic now~ Or else I'll start getting melodramatic . LOL . 

soooo, what shall I blog about? Oooh , today was so funny! I've realised that Ashley is abnormal (she does this squeaky voice when shes stressed out), shes a weirdo (she waves goodbyes and hellos to people frantically) and a freak (shes obsessed with school work!) . HAHAHAHAHAH. it makes me laugh everytime. especially the sqeaky voice! hahahahahahha :D :D :D anyways, she calls me a wieirdo to RITA EVERY. SINGLE. CHEMISTRY CLASS... and then i would be like... what the.... yeahhh just attack me when im innoccent in the morning why dont chu!!! hahahaha. then rita would laugh, cuz shes neutral and so she isnt on anybody's side. But today, ash tried it to jenny. she called me weird again, and i was like - jennny! dont believeeee her!! - and i sucessfully convinced her , and jenny said - no ashley,, i believe merry. hahahahahahhaa =DDD NOW WHOS THE EXPERT IN CONVINCING PEOPLE. hehehehe. ^^ . Ohh and i got told off by Emma and ashh in TOK class today. when i was only telling my OPINION to the classs......(which you can probably guess what topic i was talking about. It starts with L. and ends with E . hahahahah. and then when they told me that I should keep it to myself, i got embarrassed.... and went all red.... ahahahha...... but at least ms allen didnt mind me sharing my thoughts ^^ hehehe..

OMG! The ski trip is in ... 3 days! I heard savannah and tom being really excited for it today, but to tell you the truth, im more nervous than being excited for it! Im freaking out over who to sit with... -__- hahaha. oh well.. Ill figure it out on the day.... and sink in my seat if no one talks to me... and yeahhh ,, hahaha okaaay lol... 

But I am certainly excited for the indo trip!!! :D :D :D :D I cant waaaaaaaait to go shopping!! and i get to spend a whole week with my friends in the same rooom! I can already imagine how high we will be each night . 0___0 hahahahha . lol . and and and , im going birthday gift shopping. ! and im getting all my friends to help me find presents for all my guy friends . Likeee Frank, Franco, David2x , Wilsonnn, and extra souviners for anyone else ^^ hehee . I already know what to get for frankieeee... and ppl are convincing me to buy franco something related to soccer -___- hoih... but i am NOT gonna buy a soccer ball, OR A T-SHIRT OF RONALDO. hahahahhaha .. (my friends' ideas.) . I mean seriously, I never know what to get guys. I have been interviewing so many guys about what guys like to get as presents in general. So far this their response:

David Yu (1st response) - Anything really.
Geoffery - Doesnt matter.
Weiren - A B.J (yeahhh no need to say it out loud here, hahahah).
Frank - Anything
Franco - Anything . But suggested jeans or a t-shirt after I forced him into saying something. hahaha.
David Yu (2nd response) - Depends on who the guy is. And not chocolate. (hahahah AGREED!)
My brother - *just ignores my question.*
My dad - "kamu mau tahu kenapa Mer? Kamu suka ya, sama *insert name here* ?"

So there you go. Did you personally find any of their responses useful? hahahaha. I mean , when they mean ANYTHING, do they literally mean ANYTHING? For example, if I bought them a kit-kat, would that be considered as a good enough present? Or maybe if I bought them a normal daily pen? How would they react inside their minds? hahahaha. so there you go, that is why , i have to go shopping in indo, buying presents for all my guy friends :) hahaha. And I jus realised.... I get along better with guys (from indo) better than the girls...... 0_o ... cuz like.... me and the guys are like... you know ... get close easily cuz they're really fun to talk to. Just like now how I just made friends with some guy who just graduated from SMA WARGA (the indo school's name), and he was my senior , and he told me that he vaguely saw me around the school, and yeahhhh when we talked, we just clicked and had no awkward conversations. lol.  but the girls (that dont know me well) are just like..... i just wanna add you as my friend to see what you are like, sorta thing. and so once they add me, they dont say hi or anything.... -__- and the guys speak in simple language. like they dont abbrieviate their words. whereas the girls do, and then i just get lost... at trying to figure out what they are saying to me... so i dont end up replying........ hahahah my bad..... lol. So im thinking of you know... deleting those ppl on fb who im not close with... cuz im getting waaay too much updates from randoms that i dont even know..... so yeahhh . and also i have around 470 friends or some shizz, and like 250+ of them are all from that indo school . 0__0 hahahaha. Anyways, but in reality, I am closer to girls . Cuz back when i was at the indo school, i had lots of girl friends, cuz all the guys were nervous to speak to me infront of me, and i was nervous standing in front of them. I WAS JUST NERVOUS IN GENERAL when it came to recess and lunch, cuz like ... the whole school practically looked at me . :S as if im THAT interesting or something..... hahahaha. But it was funny and kind of my close girl friends to defend and protect me against all flirty/dangerous types of boys back then.. ahhahahah ^^ oh i miss them lots! Cant wait to see them again soon~~

Oh my goshh... ive written so much........... hahahahah. o welll... i hope you readers were entertained....? LOL . Tooodles! Goooodnight~~ xxxxxx
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well that was my post for yesterday actually! Except I did that originally on my laptop and I wasnt within any access to the internet and I couldn't really be bothered going all the way to the living room to set up the whole internet broadband thingy cuz it was too cold outside my room and all that shizz .. hahaha . well today was just kinda the opposite from yesterday... cuz at lunch i was emo 0_0 . 1st because of english. our teacher is so unfair, and gahhh frustrating! 2nd - I just thought of how I might be when it will be the last day for my friend to be at the school . I will miss him so much, and I dont even want to imagine how I will cry. 3rd - Turtle is making me confused. I just want him to speak to me already! hahaha... anyways yeahhh.... today was miserable, wet, cold and windy. But at least I didnt get a flu or a headache again! :) hehe. There was only one highlight from T today, which was after school, I said goodbye to him, and he gave me a sweet shy smile back at me :) To come to think of it... I wonder how emma went on her little mission . hehehe....

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Wow, I havent blogged for a while! Sorry to all my readers! hahaha. I haven't been blogging so often because I havent had much chance of staying on the laptop for a long period, cuz my parents are always watching me.. hahaha . And my hand couldnt be bothered writing a whole bunch of detail about my life. hahaha . sorryyy. But now im doing my TOK blog -__- so yeahhh , il multi-task by writing in this blog as well to entertain myself and you readers :) hehe .

Hmmm. I don't even know where to start. Alright, excuse me if I start off blogging awkwardly okaay.. hahaha.. it takes a long time before all the words start flowing...  Well.. this week has been quite good in terms of socialising and all that shizz. and I will just skip the education part , cuz its all the samee. Anyway, only recently have I been thinking about someone. Wait two people. It's really weird trying to express them here, cuz even I dont know what is inside my heart/mind and what it's trying to tell me. I wrote a private thought (which I wont publish. because of its excessive-over-load-cornyness - aka you dont even wanna read it. hahahah) , but in summary , i was just writing about how confused I am with everything . I dont know who to choose! .Yep thats it. That's my summary. hahahah . lol . sorryyy . hehehe . But yeah for now , I'll just blog about this guy code-named- "T" . (only my friends would know who this is. but if one of you are reading this, dont tell anyone! hehe) . Well, it is obvious that there is something going on between us. Maybe its just me, but I'm hoping that its true. All his friends, and all my friends tease us about us. LOL . and okay, I admit, our friendship has it's cold and hot moments. and a few weeks ago, i found out that all the boarders know about us from the past , how each time when we had our 'silent moments' that lasted for weeks or even months - well, everyone knew about it. 0_o how embarrassing. hahaha. so anyway, I have gotten so used to gossip that now, I dont care about anyone who gossips about me and whatever is surrounding me at the moment. Because we are all human beings and gossip is what we do. Just face it, at some point in your life, you too have gossiped, right? hahaha. Well now my statement is - so what! . So what if people know about us ( hahahaha, okay i just re-stated the obvious, since MANY people know about us ). just so what. what are they gonna do? lol. haha. anywho, it was hilarious in english class, when shaun ash and me were looking at ashley's pictures on her macbook . and then a really cute animal came up, and i said - awwwwhh! that is sooo cute! . and shaun replied - hahaha! of course merry! OF COURSE YOU THINK ITS CUTE.! . it was sooo embarrassing yet so funnny (okay maybe not so funny to you guys .. hahaha okay its an inside joke). hahahaha. then in indo CAS class, it was fauzan's turn to teach, and "T" was there. Fauzan took that chance, and asked him, "T, can you please say ' kamu mau jadi pacarku nggak ' (will you be my girlfriend) to one of the teachers?" . then at that moment, EVERYONE in the room understood what it meant and started laughing! Even i laughed and i was soo embarrassed, but I tried to keep calm . hehehe. hahahaha. ahhh , seriously, I dont regret making up this Indo CAS class activity, because all the students who joined are all so lovely to teach, and we always have a fun time in class :) hehe .

Okay well I hope this is not the case between me and him. (if he is even thinking about this.)

Because I'll confess this now.

If he ever asks me out any time soon...

My answer is YES.

Ooooh helloooo hotties from BEAST (korean band) ♥

hahahaha! We'll I am officially in a blogging mood tonight! Because today was awesome :) hahahaha yeahhh i couldnt find another word for awesome. :P . anywho, so many great things happened today! Firstly , i saw him many times today ~ which made me happy , cuz you know , we rarely even get to talk to one another . but yeah ~ i like getting his morning greetings ~ hehe . Oh! Before I continue , i must tell you that for the indo trip, we have to put on a performance/concert for the A'alazar Indonesian School (omg i dont know how to spell their school's name!)  since they performed for us . And so the people going to the Indo Trip, decided to sing and dance. half chose singing , and the other chose dancing . but you know what.. being the leader isn't as easy as it sounds or looks! I got so confused and tired when everyone was like "its up to you." because no one was really giving any ideas at the first meeting , and so i was like askldcjawoief !! hahahaha. but anyways, today was MUCH better. 

We decided to sing the song - "Two is better than one" , and me, tambie, ash, tried singing it yesterday afternoon , and we sounded so nice :) . At lunch time today, Tambie, Ash and me practiced singing the song again, and THANK YOU TO ASHLEY (^^) she found the PERFECT occtive/pitch that suited everyone's voice. because the song's actual pitch for the guy is wayy too low and taylor swift's singing is waayy too high. but now , we have finally found the occtive that suites everyone's voice. hehe . oh yeahh btw, although ash isnt coming to the indo trip , but shes still joining our activity for CAS . hahaha . so yeahhh , she gets to join in the funnn we have , hehehe . So anyways, after singing that and knock you down, we then attempted to learn the SHINee's Replay (Noona you're so pretty) dance. it was soo funnnny and so much fun , cuz basically we only mastered how to do the 'bopping up and down' movement, which only takes up like.... 0.1% of the whole dance! HAHA. and for 30 minutes we were just laughing cuz the dance was waaay to fast for us , and LOL at Ashley's blog ! She described the dance moves as "funky moves" which made me laugh . hahahaha. then Emma, Malanu , Raihan , Wafie and Fauzan came to join. And then we all sang the song . it was fun but a bit awkward cuz we didnt sound too pleasant . hahahah . but anyways . . .  lol . The whole day it was raining so that got me annoyed, especially when the puddles kept going in my shoes from the tennis court . haih . anyways after school, me emma and tambie practiced the song again , then rai joined in not long after , and i swear , we sound so so so so sooo good. i was so confident that we sounded so lovely until i wanted to try out to sing destiny's song - stand up for love - because that song is so inspirational and touching . its quite hard cuz it has a lot of high notes , but i was so convinced that we could do it . but not sureee yet . hahahaha . anyways, it was so much fun practicing with them 3 . for once in my life, i feel comfortable singing infront of a group of friends / people . hahaha cuz usually im really shy at singing :(


At home , i did my bio homework .. had to research . and im still doing the prac report... haih . so tiring . i just wanna sleep . and then i checked facebook and i saw someones status . i guess its too public to state it here, but the point of it was that his status made me so shocked , because IF his status was for me , then that means me and ashley's prediction is correct . and then ash got excited about if anything would happen between me and the guy , then i got excited because ashley's email was so funny , ahhahaha , and then we both got giggly and i was like trying to hide behind the laptop screen away from my parents :P hehe . hahahaha . and then ash had to remind me of "Tambie's infectious and uncontrollable laugh!" , and i just bursted into laughter cuz im serious, my friend Tambie really does have an infectious and uncontrollable laugh!!! hahahahaha. because everytime she laughs, we ALL start laughing . LOL . hehe . then i decided to watch the video from today right, and omg IT IS SO FRICKEN HILARIOUS!~ Ashley was SO funny!!! cuz she was reaallly clueless about how to dance and everything! :P then there was tambie, who was just randomly having breakdancing moments HAHA! and then there was just me , who was laughing every second at both of them :P hahahahaha . i was gonna post it on here , but ashley saiid that her life would be over if i did post it  . LOL . (afraid of social suicide i guess ! hahahaha ) . anyways , whoah! this is a really long post tonight! hahahaha . hope you people didnt mind me rambling on ! hehe .

Love always , Merry.

I'm not in a blogging mood, but im a little stressed so i have to ramble on about something! Right now, i feel so low because all the work is piling up and im going on the ski trip and the indo trip mixed with a bajillion tests every week and a math portfolio coming up! its just too stressful! and just now , my dad was teaching me math and trigonometry is like the boring-est topic everrrrrrrr. hoih. and i still gotta do CAS shizz like dancing and singing for the upcoming concert for the indonesian student exchange program . and haaaaaaaiiiihhhhh. ive been working so hard this term , and thank God i got a 7 for my chem test :) hehe . but anyways , one wrong answer pulled me down by 10%!!!! abcjeh;acnke; ah . anywhos... ahem . so yeahhhhh. i feel tired EVERY DAY. But at least i have my friends who keep me happy during school , and my social life is quite good these days , i have more friends :) and then i have my supportive caring family whom i love so dearly during the night. so yeahh . i guess i shouldnt complain. its bad for me . 0_o . alright , keeep warm everyone ! and try not to get sick!! especially those going to the indo trip!! otherwise we'll infect one another.. and i dont want that to happppennnnn! we have to have funnnnnn , not be sick! hehehe. toodles...~~~

HELLOOOS! How is everybody's weekend going ?? The weather is quite lovely so im in a good mood :) that doesnt mean im completely haaapppy or something , but just 'good' , because i kinda stresssing out about my two tests tmorrow!! and i still havent finished my math homework!!! D: D: D: . really, memorising biology is so dang difficult!! arrghhhhh.

Anyways , at least I have some good news. Which is , I have finally found out the area which to put in the mixpod player . since someone on my formspring complained that they couldnt stop my music , so I decided to listen to their complaint or whatever shizz, and now you can find my music player on the first page that you see when you open my blog , AND if you go to the "MAIN" tab up the top, you will also find it there. Though , I only currently have two songs , partly because I couldn't be bothered to find other songs, but for those who know Indo , check out the song "Dilema Cinta" and listen. I have provided you the lyrics to the song on my previous post. :) Happy Listening peoples.

(p.s if you have any song suggestions, Im happy to find it for you , just suggest in my formspring page .)
- toodles xxxxxxx

DILEMA CINTA

- Ungu ( Indo band )

seberapa salahkah diriku
hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku
inikah cara membalas
aku yang slalu ada saat kau terluka

seberapa hinanya diriku
hingga kau ludahi semua yang ku beri untukmu
tak ada satupun perasaan
yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka

Reff:
namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
begitu terlalu indah perasaan itu
tak mudah untukku jauh darimu

telah kucoba segala cara
tuk bahagiakan kamu merebut hatimu
namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan
bila kau tak inginkan ku tuk disisimu

tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa
meyakini hatiku bahwa ku mampu berlalu

Kunjungi web: http://musiklib.org/Ungu-Dilema_Cinta-Lirik_Lagu.htm#ixzz0vtRzta7Q

 Me - (*talks to pak about how exciting my day has been* :D)
[then looks at dad ] ...
 Dad - (looks at the soccerfield and shouts - " GO SHAUN! ") . and takes no interest about my exciting day filled with laughter, at all.
 Me - . . . .  thanks for listening pak.. (-__-)"

Im currently following this blog called http://shiningshineeworld.blogspot.com/ and i just realised that all of the group members have muscles now, except for Key and Taemin who are still so super thin!! hahahaha . Anywhos moving on , sorry about my last post, maybe some of you may have noticed that it didnt really sound like me or something , because actually i wrote that post when i wasnt in my 'blogging mood' so yeah , i tried to make it sound interesting like how interesting it actually was on the day , but yeahhhh i think it didnt really work . but nevermind , you people must know what i mean . lol . or maybe its because im not a great explainer? or its the 'after effect' meaning , the excitement just drowned for me cuz it happened a few days ago. okay sorrryyy im going on about nothing here!! lol.

Ahhh so today my family has gone to melb , and i dont get to come :( wuhuhuu. because i have two tests on monday and other math homework! AND before, when i was daydreaming , i thought of the math portfolio.. and i figured that i have to somehow do it earlier because im going to the indo trip in 5 weeks!! So im freaking out right now . cuz i really hate maths right now . i hate this stupid trigonometry topic!! :( haihhhh. anyways , alot of things have been happening in my life, but im too tired to say them all right now .

Toodles ~ and have a lovely weekend everyone! x

(for anyone going to the indo trip, we are going to this place!!
Its at a Palace 'Kraton' in Solo!! :D

Hellooooooos :D Alright , sorry i didnt update yesterday or the day before. Yesterday I was plan emo... and no, i was not emo because of BOYS or some shizz that some of you mean people might sayy. but i was emo about math. . . .  - -" . so yeahhh i was in a bad mood and i had no access to the internet so yeahhh. sorry ashhhh for keeping you waiting for me to update.. which just lead you to being paranoid at yourself slacking..... hahahaha. . . :P

Anyway , i blogged a few days ago about something funny that occurred one afternoon. So what happened was that, i was hanging out with malanu and wilson at the heaters, just out side the dinning room . (the weather was freeezing btw..) . and there also were a few other people like Jacky and Mikha etc.. and then Gracy came along and she wanted to take a picture of all of us randomly . so yeahhh me and malanu dragged wilson to join in . hehehe . so we we took the pictures outside and it was soo cold!! But then Mikha (the new Indonesian guy in year 8) was so FUNNY! he was like so talkativeeee!! hahahaha. Here are the photos :

Then as soon as Gracy was finished, Jacky left and Wilson ran away . so me , malanu , mikha and gracy were left  . Then Gracy wanted to take an individual photo of mikha. and THIS was when all the funny moments happened. He started become SO talkative , me and malanu just couldnt stop laughing like idiots. hahahaha. and it was LOL funny when he couldnt make up his mind of what pose he wanted to do. until gracy was like . . . .  (-___-)" . . . . . . .  -HAHAHAHA . I swear , i just met him in one day , and he made us laugh sooo much in less an 30 minutes...LOL .

Next up, me and malanu decided to go to the library . and we found wilsonnnnn. hehehe . and sat next to him . we ended up webcaming and facebooking . and then we noticed that teachers inside the library private room , were having a tutorial about the interactive whiteboard. and it happened to be that they were dissecting a frog on the interactive whiteboard. Then at the same time , us three were staring into the room and watching the whiteboard with fascination and jaws dropped wide open. then the next thing we know, is that the lady running the course looks at us, and then ALL of the teachers turned back and saw us!!! hahahahahah. then they started laughing.! and then me wilson and malanu were like... !!!!!! *HIDES* . HAHAHAHA it was sooo funny , they caught us staring in!! lolll . So basically , spending afternoons with wilson and malanu , never fail to make ALL OF US happy in the end :D hehehee.

Heeellooooos :D :D :D

Today was another brilliant day! But before I go on story - telling, I just happened to be browsing my pictures from my laptop , and found these photos of Key and Minho from SHINee!! Goshhhhh, my heart just melts to see them bothhh! hahahahha!

Why oh why did you change your beautiful hairstyle , Key? T.T ~ so sad ~

Oh man. Could you be any sexier , Minho!? ~ melts away ~

 I  A M  S O  H A P P Y  T O D A Y !  

Seriously, although here I am trying to finish my indo essay, my day was absolutely filled with happiness and laughter!  here is how my day went:

•  First & Second Period - i had maths. joy . but then ASHLEY SEE entered the room and then I saw the new indonesian guy (from year 8) , and i said to ash , "hey lets introduce ourselves to him! since he's indo!" then ash was like all "yeaaahhhh!!!" and then there we were, just standing outside the door, looking at him, waiting for the right moment to say hi to him. But that 'right moment' never came. Both of us were too scared to introduce ourselves!! hahahahah. it turned out that ashley was waiting for me to do the first action, and i was waiting for her to do something! LOL. -fail!-
• So then maths began, and (dont ask me why.....) but ash decided to be really weird all of a sudden. She started doing these high voices ... and complaining.... ( 0__o ) and then out of nowhere she said to Rita (my friend) - " RITA! Did you know that Merry is WEIRD. " and i was like " ... " then she bursted out laughing.. and then rita laughed . and i was like "w h a t  t h e . . . .  just pick on the innocent, why dont you! " ahahahaha . so yeahhhh . then me and ash started getting high for some reason that i cant remember .. but i do remember us complain about how learning trig is kinda useless for the future if we wanna become doctors. cuz like YEAH RIGHT, as if we're gonna say to patients "Oh , you see , you will need to get three pie over 4 times 10 to the power of negative twenty five doses of this medicine!!!" (hahahah , its mine and ashley's little joke we have . hehe . ) and so yeahh . haaaiih. math is so time consuming . . . lol.

•  Recess - So me and ash were at the dining room corridor place , and were happily chatting along with sokhom and some other few friends. I was trying to give ashley love advice (yet she didnt like any of my ideas!! :O hahaha. ) then along came my friend LEO brought AHEM AHEM towards me! hahahah. and then ashley got the idea of what leo was tryin to do, and so she pushed me towards that guy . - -" [the guy , being not leo, but someone else, who i will not mention for PRIVACY ISSUES. hahaaha] , and i was sooo embarrassed T.T . hahahah . but it was funny , cuz he didnt actually act cold :) so im quite glad that he's OK with me now, like at least we can be friends again :) hehee. OH! and also we saved ellena ^_^ hahahha . 

•  Third Period - We had englishhhhhh. Nothing exiting happened. . . lame.

• Lunch - Weeeell , it was super duper freeeeezing today! so i did my bio report homework in the dinning room area, and he walked past a couple of times . and i SWEAR ashley is trying to embarrass me and make him shy or something! HAHA . cuz shes like " hi ___ , is there anything else you want to say? " (hinting for him to say something to me) . And so i bursted out laughing . hahahaha. so yeahh more laughing. then when emma got told, she laughed as well.. lol hahaha. then me , emma and ash were looking at the Group 4 project groups. I feel soo sorry for both of them cuz they dont really have anyone , other than just one friend , but im sure both of you will do great!! :D 

•  Fifth & Sixth Period - I past him again, and he smiled to me, which made me smile , cuz again i was happy for him to be friends with me again. and then ashleeey "coughed" , which made me laugh again - -" hahaha. then we had chemistry~ it was so-so.. the usual. But is it just me, or is everyone in my class apart from me and ash , so relaxed about the topic that we are studying?? 

•  Seventh Period - Biology class... the same old usual. but then me and ash got high again .. after seeing Tambie smile through the window whilst walking past. hehehe. then when it was period break, me and ash got even more high from my blue berry muffin :D :D (which i was tryin to hide from my teacher. hehehe...)
  
  
•  Eight Period - Actually, it wasnt me that had eighth period , but ashley . hehehe :P she was complaining about it all day. I feel so sorry for those students who have an eighth period. luckily, i dont have it! :D ha ha ha!
  
  
•  In the Library - I hung out with Emmmma ♥  and she showed me all these cute photobox pictures of japanese teenagers. and it made me wanna go to japan and do photo-boxing!! :D hehehe . and emma had some photos of her own with her friends, and emma is the most adorable girl ever! hehe :P i even said - Ohhhhh wont DERY like that. bahahahhaa. (aka her stalker.) . and she was like "ugh.. what-ever!" LOL . then i checked my email and i got an email from my 'brother' <3 - which made me smile as usual when i receive emails from him and laugh at his silly jokes. :P
  
• Then i had like 30 minutes of doing maths homework... along with talking to malanu about my formspring and blog , and she told me how her and tambie were laughing last night about it. Hahaha. then along came wilson who joined our convo, then we had the most funniest and most serious conversation ever! Malanu started telling us about her experiences in her old maths class. it was soo hilarious!! the tongue thing, HAHAHAHA, and the "when is it due?" hahahahah!! then wilson couldnt resist laughing , until i had to calm him down. hahaha. then things got serious and i found out some goood stuuff, and discovered that gossip does not stay low around boarding. In other words, alot of boarders know alot of stuff that is happening between me and other guys. - -" greaaat. lol . hahaha nevermind~
  
  
•  Home - Ate. watched something funny that had a hot guy in it. did indo . and then i spoke with daaavid :D i only became friends with him last term, but hes a nice guy :) friendly too. we discussed about hairstyles.. and how i thought he looked better with longer hair. hahahah. 

So anyways, i just realised that my day is basically like this almost everyday. filled with laughter and hyperness. :D i loveeee my friends so much! Too bad Raihan wasnt here today! :( 

Seeeee ya all laters! Goooodnight.! xx

I just got told off for being too honest in my blog .
Well hang on, this is my blog, isn't it?
I am aware of all consequences , so why are you more concerned than I am?
Also, as far as I know, I have not gossiped about anyone or name-called anyone , neither have I back-stabbed anyone , or even insulted anyone on any of my blogs .
- So, I think it is okay for me to write like this,  as long as I'm not harming or insulting anyone in any kind of way, I have every right to write about whatever I please. So really, if you find my posts too honest, too weird, too corny/mushy , too lame , or anything else along those words - : I only have two recommendations for you. It's simple.

Just move your mouse towards the red cross at the right hand corner of your computer screen , and then click it


After you have closed the screen, swear to yourself, to never visit my blog again. So that you wont have to complain about any unpleasant aspects from my blog.


. Anyone else wanting to criticize me , go ahead. My feelings are basically oblivious to whatever your intentions are from all the insults you say to me. I've learnt from the past, and I have other better things to do than to think about rubbish that cowards say to me behind their screens.

:( man, i miss my indo friends so much! 

I cant wait to see them again when I go back!!! :D