Wow, I havent blogged for a while! Sorry to all my readers! hahaha. I haven't been blogging so often because I havent had much chance of staying on the laptop for a long period, cuz my parents are always watching me.. hahaha . And my hand couldnt be bothered writing a whole bunch of detail about my life. hahaha . sorryyy. But now im doing my TOK blog -__- so yeahhh , il multi-task by writing in this blog as well to entertain myself and you readers :) hehe .

Hmmm. I don't even know where to start. Alright, excuse me if I start off blogging awkwardly okaay.. hahaha.. it takes a long time before all the words start flowing...  Well.. this week has been quite good in terms of socialising and all that shizz. and I will just skip the education part , cuz its all the samee. Anyway, only recently have I been thinking about someone. Wait two people. It's really weird trying to express them here, cuz even I dont know what is inside my heart/mind and what it's trying to tell me. I wrote a private thought (which I wont publish. because of its excessive-over-load-cornyness - aka you dont even wanna read it. hahahah) , but in summary , i was just writing about how confused I am with everything . I dont know who to choose! .Yep thats it. That's my summary. hahahah . lol . sorryyy . hehehe . But yeah for now , I'll just blog about this guy code-named- "T" . (only my friends would know who this is. but if one of you are reading this, dont tell anyone! hehe) . Well, it is obvious that there is something going on between us. Maybe its just me, but I'm hoping that its true. All his friends, and all my friends tease us about us. LOL . and okay, I admit, our friendship has it's cold and hot moments. and a few weeks ago, i found out that all the boarders know about us from the past , how each time when we had our 'silent moments' that lasted for weeks or even months - well, everyone knew about it. 0_o how embarrassing. hahaha. so anyway, I have gotten so used to gossip that now, I dont care about anyone who gossips about me and whatever is surrounding me at the moment. Because we are all human beings and gossip is what we do. Just face it, at some point in your life, you too have gossiped, right? hahaha. Well now my statement is - so what! . So what if people know about us ( hahahaha, okay i just re-stated the obvious, since MANY people know about us ). just so what. what are they gonna do? lol. haha. anywho, it was hilarious in english class, when shaun ash and me were looking at ashley's pictures on her macbook . and then a really cute animal came up, and i said - awwwwhh! that is sooo cute! . and shaun replied - hahaha! of course merry! OF COURSE YOU THINK ITS CUTE.! . it was sooo embarrassing yet so funnny (okay maybe not so funny to you guys .. hahaha okay its an inside joke). hahahaha. then in indo CAS class, it was fauzan's turn to teach, and "T" was there. Fauzan took that chance, and asked him, "T, can you please say ' kamu mau jadi pacarku nggak ' (will you be my girlfriend) to one of the teachers?" . then at that moment, EVERYONE in the room understood what it meant and started laughing! Even i laughed and i was soo embarrassed, but I tried to keep calm . hehehe. hahahaha. ahhh , seriously, I dont regret making up this Indo CAS class activity, because all the students who joined are all so lovely to teach, and we always have a fun time in class :) hehe .

Okay well I hope this is not the case between me and him. (if he is even thinking about this.)

Because I'll confess this now.

If he ever asks me out any time soon...

My answer is YES.