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Oh, I just realised, after writing about the facebook incident, my rating went much higher... :\ i think around 40 people visited my blog at that time. like wow... after being like 5 people or so from the previous weeks, its just surprising - that's all. anyways, last Sunday I went to school to do my math portfolio with my friends , like Wilson , Emma , Audrey... and also Sokhom came along , so we all hung out together. And cuz I was working in the blue room , and all the boarders were having lunch, Frankie saw me and came to talk to me for a while~ .And then I had lunch with Wilson and Sokhom at the Ying Yang eating place . And we were saying how Wilson was wearing such nice clothes... so he made everyone feel less fashionable. lol xD but anyways, he looked good so it wasnt a bad thing :) hehe . Oh . Btw, as soon as we arrived at Ying Yang , we were greeted by all the year 10 boarders who were ALL on their laptops playing World of Warcrafts Dota. It was seriously intense and just ridiculous. The guy serving the food at the restaurant eventually told them off - "HEY BOYS! Stop playing and eat!" But of course they were too absorbed to notice... and they were so dead serious about the game, until if they did a mistake or something ... they would just swear out of no where and really loud too... and we were just like what the... and you know what... there were also other people at the restaurant... so ... it was a little bit embarrassing , because yes, unfortunately these are the guys from our school ... -sigh- hahaha... nevermind, here's the picture of them below. Some of the heads are covered... and there were two more guys on the left side but they arent in the photo...:
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| Intense gaming by the year 10 guys . to make matters worse, it was at a RESTAURANT! |
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Anyways , in these past two days, there has been a serious drama going on in my social life. You know how I like this guy at my school right... well I found out something that really broke my heart. It was all so shocking to finally get told the truth. He knew everything, he saw everything happen , yet he never did anything to stop me from falling for him . I was disappointed in him . Really so disappointed in him . Why? Because after all this time, he lead me on , tricked me into believing that he felt something too.. but I was wrong. After finding out the truth, it feels like my face has just been slapped or something. My dear friend told me the truth after he was really sick of watching everything happen in front of him . He felt sorry for me for having to waste alot of my time, when he isnt even thinking about me at all. Since I'm a really emotional person, and I'm sure I'm not the only girl who feels the same way , so I rang all my friends, including frankie and leo. I had to ring frank because I knew that he would give me emotional support and advice. And I had to ring my bestfriends, because they knew what I was going through. How much I thought that I had finally found someone new who made me happy. Seriously , they all hated him and thought he was a jerk because they too were also fooled into believing the he might have liked me. I cried after ringing Ashley, after all the memories of me and him flooding in my mind. and whilst ringing frank, I cried too, but his words made me stop crying, because i felt like a baby. But soon after , he sent me the most caring email ever. There was one particular quote which I liked , that was : "No one is worth your tears. Unless if its your parents or someone you love like them." . Thankfully, I was soon comforted by those who i love <3 and I managed to not cry that night , so I'm proud of my achievement. Another guy who really cares for me is Wilson. He is so sweet to me , like an older brother . He looked after me during the ski trip too . Everytime I would fall, he would help me back up. And so yesterday he was telling me to end this whole drama . He was sick of everything happening... and he told me to take control. I told him of how scared I was to face Franco, but he supported me . I asked him , "wilson, what if I end up crying tomorrow? Will you be there for me?" and he answered - "I will be as close to you as possible, physically and mentally" . that touched my heart , because I though that it was really sweet .
Today after school , I avoided looking at Franco cuz i was just so sick of everything . Though after school , i was contemplating whether I should talk to him about it or not . Then as I saw him walking past , I shouted out his name. and for a second i went - shit! why did i call him!? . but it was too late cuz he was already beside me waiting for me to speak. So i told him i wanted to talk to him. And this is where it all began....
All the thoughts I had in my head, weren't coming out of my mouth. Crap - i thought. Like seriously, for 10 minutes, I just stood there trying to explain to him, but literally nothing came out from my mouth! Although I wanted to tell him and ask him so many things, I didnt know where to begin! Finally, after building up courage, I told him that I know that he knows , but he played dumb , and waited for me to elaborate. So out of no where, I either had a sudden courage over-flow or just a automatic response, where I said to him - Look, I know that you know that I liked you. There I said it. - He just kinda kept walking (since we were originally walked around the school) , and gave no reply . That action was a good enough confirmation that he had no special feelings towards me. -sigh- But anyway, after that tallk , I somewhat felt relived . Perhaps maybe because I dont have to think about the whole situation ever again , because we cleared things out and now we are like normal friends. So yeah .
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