"Aku butuh cinta yang setia."

I need faithful, honest and never-ending love.

At moments where I feel so emotional, I want a guy who will hug me and comfort me and tell me that I shouldn't give up on life. I need that guy right now. I've almost given up with this other guy from school, because I feel that fate is always pulling us away from each other. There is not once where we are not separated from each other. For example, during graduation the other night, I only had the chance to speak with him for less than a minute because I had to go home already. Then my parents are always constantly giving me no freedom to go out with any guys what so ever. Though with him, I really feel that we aren't meant to be. It's like God knows that I really love him but he is not for me, so our relationship is always distanced by any obstacles in life. It's really unfair, but this is part of my destiny, to not be with him. All I can do is to hope and pray that there is a better man for me in the future. What made me fall for this guy in the first place? Well he is really different from other guys. He has listened to me whenever I cry about stupid minor teenage-love problems, and he always cheers me up, he always looks after me whenever I am in trouble or caught in the rain. He is never ever PMS-y like the other guys. There is not once where he has mistreated me. He is the first guy who has always made me happy. I smile and my heartbeat races whenever he greets me with his friendly smile. No wonder his friends are always there for him when he is in trouble, because he is a really good friend. I really need someone like him who cares about me sincerely. I'm really sick of guys playing around with girl's feelings. Whenever I see or hear about guys who mistreat girls, it really makes me upset and angry. All girls need to be respected and treated with care, because you may not know it, but just because that girl isn't showing her emotions in front of you, that does not mean that she doesn't cry because of you at night. And when she does cry directly in front of you, it shows that she has reached the point where she is telling you that she gives up on pretending to not feel the way you thought she was. You guys need to wake up. We girls aren't a piece of meat where you can just have sex with her and leave her the next morning. Nor are we toys that can be played with and eventually  get  thrown away just cuz you are bored with it. You need to respect us girls, because most of us are really insecure and long for a guy who will treat her with loyal care and love. I really need a guy like that.