Thursday, July 28, 2011

Merry, how can we be sure that we really love someone?

Most people would say, if you can't live without them, if you would die for them, if you cant stop thinking about them, if you always want to be with them etc etc. But I would go further and more deeper than that. In my opinion, we can be sure that we really love them if we are willing to sacrifice ourselves for them. That doesn't mean we have to become all dramatic or suicidal and say "I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU, SO IF YOU DIE, I DIE" - nononono, that's just being irrational. Sacrifice can include things such as, if they asked you to do something or ask for help, even if it meant it would waste some of your time, would you do it for the sake of them?

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How many profile photos do you have on your Formspring? Have you taken a profile photo with your computer's webcam yet?

Holy Moley! I just realised, there's a couple of photos of me on formspring! :O whaaaaaaaaaat..... deleteeee. :(

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Kungfu Panda 2

Naaaaaaaaawwh! Baby Po is shoooooo cuuuuute! Hehehe. I loved Kungfu Panda 2! As much as I loved Kunfu Panda 1. Hahaha. It's really funny, and heart touching. And there were so much scenes where you got to see him as a baby. He was so cute!! Hehehe I was naaaaw-ing all the way. LOL. Anyways, it's a must see drama if you haven't watched it. Who says teenagers can't watch animated movies? Pffft. We're still young enough! ^^ (P.s, these pictures below are actually gifs. So click on them to see cute little po move! :D)



How many questions have you answered?

682 :)

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Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I've finished UMAT today! :) It was alright, except I got really nervous when I first came because there were hundreds, maybe even thousands of people in the queues! So much people want to be doctors. It was so overwhelming I was just shaking all the way through when I stood in line. Luckily my dad was beside me in line so I had someone to talk to, to calm down my nerves. :) Anyways, when everyone was in the room, the exam didnt even start until an hour and a half later. =.= and people kept going to the toilet. The guy in front of me even went to the toilet 5 times. And he kept cracking his back 3 times and I was like... excuse me? =.= hoih. Anyways, I think I did alright. Though section 1 was hard, section 2 was too long, but luckily section 3 was a piece of pie. The questions were far more simple than the medentry drills. So I hope that will pull up my overall score! Eeeeeee. I'm praying that I did well :3 hehe.


Tuesday, July 26, 2011


. No matter what. In the future, I never intend to do business with you. So stop acting like we are close .


Every time I think of him, I cringe. Every time I hear him laugh, I cringe. Every time I hear his name, I cringe. You get the point. I'm not fond of associating with arrogant people who only manfaats other people. Especially their own relatives. Eww. Thank goodness you're already deleted off my FB.


Monday, July 25, 2011

Eh. I curled my hair a few days ago for the first time in AGES! I thought I had seriously lost my ability to curl my hair, but eh, my hair turned out alright. :3 hehe. Furthermore, it was my first time in ages of cam-whoring! hahahaha. I use to remember those days where in year 9, it was the 'cool thing to do' to take alot of pictures of yourself.. and then competition of popularity took place. Where a lot of likes or comments you received indicates how popular you were. And it was competition of maturity as well, where you get commented on how well you pose and all that shizz. Speaking of it, this only happened on MySpace! Hahahahha. Yes that was the Facebook back then. Then it got lame, and people in my year got lazy and now ... it doesnt even exist and we're all using Facebook. LOL.
Guys, would you do me a favour? Describe me in 3 words! (link is below) :3 Simple right? Thanks ^^
http://threewords.me/inspiremyheart

Sunday, July 24, 2011

OKAY. Since I have no one else to share my excitement with, I just really wanted to say how GOOD City Hunter is! Although it's an action drama, it's such a thriller that will keep you at the edge of your seat!!!!!! GAAAAAH. I'm up to episode 18 now (almost over! Nooo) and I would finally give it a 5/5 rating! Last time I gave it a 4, but now it's increased because it's reaaaally a thriller movie! Hahaha. The plot of the drama is really good and I've never been so hooked with an action movie before. But seriously, this drama is a must watch. The only thing that keeps me pissed off is the Prosecuter guy. (the one on the right of Lee Min Ho in the picture. His character is really annoying. I know he's just trying to do his job, but seriously. He's so annoying how he keeps on chasing after the City Hunter (Lee Min Ho) and keeps on being an obstacle. HOIH. But anyways~ It's a really good drama. No kidding :)



Saturday, July 23, 2011



Ya know. There are LOTS of these around Tumblr. Stuff that always says "I'm a good pretender" or "Silence is a girl's loudest cry" and etc etc. But to be honest, why aren't there any typographies which state otherwise? Because in my case, I'm not that great at pretending to be OK and if I do, my parents will FORCE whatever I'm hiding inside of me because they get angry so I always lose and end up telling.... hahahahaha. , and then if I try to even pretend to be OK, I end up hurting those around me. :S it's weird.... hahahahah. Nevermind. So I rather speak out then to keep it in. Plus, I'm not even good at holding my emotions in. LOL xD Anyone on the same boat as me?
I'm still in love with the couple from Dream High, Pilsuk and Jason :3





Thursday, July 21, 2011

When my parents blame me when something goes missing in the house :

I'm like -

Got this from tumblr. This is SO what me and my bestfriend do :3

When we see a hot guy coming past us.

Both of us are like:


Then after he leaves, we're like:


Hahahahahhaha. I think Ashley is the right one. I'm the left one looking retarded. LOL.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I just realised. Many of the MV's from Korea now have foreign girls to replace Korean females as the "main girl character". Or so I noticed from Big Bang's MV Beautiful Hangover and Tonight. Also there were alot of foreign girls on 2PM's Hands Up. Hahahha. I don't mind actually, but it's something I need to get used to , I guess. It's just not the typical stereotype I usually see everywhere. There are only ever Asian couples and Western couples. It's weird to see them both mix. Hahahaha. Especially when I saw Daesung get intimate with that pretty girl from the MV Tonight. *shiver* I was shocked because his "pure , innocent" image has changed in that MV. Seriously. Hahahah. Anyways, here is a couple of snapshots to illustrate my point:

Big Bang - Beautiful Hangover


The girl's not even really pretty..... Her nose.....


Big Bang - Tonight


This girl is pretty. But when she touched Daesung's nose..... Oh boy. *shudders*


2AM - Hands Up


Taecyeon... tsk tsk... Getting it on with the girls. LOL.
I FINALLY GOT MY LEARNER'S PERMIT TODAY! :D Hahahahha. I only got 2 wrong in the test x) hehe. I was really nervous when I was in that small room by myself. Why do I always get nervous? :( Then as me and dad were going home, dad randomly stopped at the side of the road and said - "Mer, it's your turn to drive now." and the only thing that was running through my mind was - omgomgomgomgomg. Hahahhaha. It was so scary I tell youuuuuuuuu! I ultimately drove for 1 hour today and only drove at 60km/h. The max speed I went was 70km/h. LOL hahahaha. Nevermind, I stopped at the side to let other drivers pass me. xD But yeah, I even picked up my brother from school. Hehehe. When he saw me, he ran in excitement ;) hehehe.


Monday, July 18, 2011



HAHAHAHHA. LOL. It's so funny how we are all individuals in this world, but our behavior, attitudes and experiences are all so similar. Okay, so today, my ex decided to talk to me again. Yes Kevin. And the first thing he said to me was - "Oh wow.. you've gotten fatter." ..... like WTF?! HOW DARE HE SAY THAT! It made me angry for some time.. but I've cooled down now. How would anyone be not offended by that? I swear, Indonesians are so OBSESSED with picking on people who are "fat" in their eyes. Chubby is classified as fat. Having a round face is classified as fat. Having 1cm of meat from the bone is called overweight. Ugh. Whatever. He is so rude, so I'm like OKAY bring it on if you want to have war with me. Pssh. Unlucky freak you are Kevin.

Have you been on a date? if yes, how was it ?

Nope.. he prioritized basketball more than me. Sad yeah?

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Sunday, July 17, 2011

Hahaha, alright, maybe I don't feel like this typography to its extent , but you get my point yeah? It feels so embarrassing when you write ALOT in public networks such as facebook , but you are never replied back to. Even a little him/her liking the comment would do.. rather than to just ignore the poor person.. T.T haha. Nevermind.... I'm just super sensitive. I just feel like deleting my essay-like comments all the time when it happens. Hahaha . Nevermind~

Omgosh, UMAT is like in a weeeeek! :O I'm so nervous! But I really hope that all this studying is worth it. And I'm finally going to take the car test this week. Because my dad keeps forgetting to ring the person.. hoih. hahaha. But I want to get it over and done with! So that I can drive to schoool ! weeeeeee. hehehe :3 anyways.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Helloooos. Gosh, I'm so tired because I went out with my family today. Taking alot of photos to give memories to my aunty. But it was soo cold today I had a headache for half the day :( plus it was very windy to make it worse. Does anyone else get headaches when the weather is really cold and windy or is it just me? :( huhft. Anyways, the plus side is that we went graduation shopping and since my mum still can't walk that fast, me my bro and my dad walked around the mall quickly. I actually like shopping with my dad.. hahaha. He actually helps me choose which one is better and which is not. When I go shopping with my mum, she's so passive.. and she's always like - "Yeah, just choose what you want. I'll follow you :)" which is nice.. because she buys whatever I want, but the problem is that when it comes to formal occasions or something, she doesnt help me to choose........ so I make the decisions all buy myself. Haha. But my dad walks around so fast I have to catch up =.= hahaha. but he helps me decide, that's the positive side. Haha. Anyways, I didnt end up buying a dress yet because it isn't dress season yet, but I bought this really pretty cream blazer! I really like it :3 and I'm planning to wear it to grad over my dress. Hehehehe. Anyways, it's so p r e t t y :3

Friday, July 15, 2011

SO YOU'RE A KPOP FAN?? :D

YEEEEEEESSSH (^_____^)

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Merry thanks for your wishes and prayers for me! I already got the offer from the University> Degree In Journalism! I'm soooooo happy :') In another 2 months I'll be a Journalism student :')

You're welcome Nell!!!! ^^ I'm so happy for you! <3 <3

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Ano pipiliin mo? Matangkad na maitim at hindi gwapo o matangkad,mayaman at gwapong tisoy?

Sorry, I'm Indonesian :)

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Hellooo and goodmorning.

I have another allergic reaction to something unknown, which made my face go all red and blotchy. :( it's so annoying because now my face is all ugly and I dont even want to look at myself! Seriously, it comes and goes and I have absolutely no idea what I am allergic to! T.T makes me so depressed. Huft. P.s Just ignore the words, but basically the girl's actions is what I feel like doing everyday T.T huhuhuhu. 

Thursday, July 14, 2011

HAHAHAHHA. SO TRUE.

What do you think about long distance relationships? Do you think they work?

I think long distance relationships are very challenging but not impossible to accomplish. The only way they work is if both party have faith, trust and honesty throughout the journey. If both KNOW that they are BOTH willing to take the relationship seriously, then it WILL work. If they have both covered all those 3 things, then the only thing that will hurt them is the fact that they cannot be physically together.. :( Missing eachother is always a difficult thing to handle. The last thing I want to say, is that LDR's will always work if they both know that they will see each other again.

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What's your religion?

Christianity~

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Whos your bestfriend? :D

My brother :3 hehe.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I just checked dramacrazy's ratings, and the Korean Drama - Personal Preference, is ranked number 6! :O what the!! It even beat Secret Garden !! :O It's really surprising cuz I wouldn't rank it to be that high... haha. It's a good show, though it's not one that will get you obsessed over for weeks. Haha.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Do you find anons annoying?

Well not all anons have bad intentions.. I've met some anons who eventually became friends with me. Hahaha :) though I think that anons who spread hate online are far worse than 'annoying'. They are cowards who don't know the meaning of respect to others.

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Your ex says 'I messed up, take me back?' do you take them back?

No way. Because that would mean that it would be the fourth time him saying it to me.. (-_-) and I'm living better off without him! :3

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Friday, July 8, 2011

Dear Diary,
Today I'm going to confess something.. hope you don't mind hearing them. 

- I really don't like him.  The things he did , the way he used us just because of money, the way he pretends that nothing is wrong, his lack of sense that things must be re-payed, that ignorance he displays, that sense of using others and pretending not to acknowledge his wrong doings.. oh wait, I've just repeated myself haven't I? Well I guess I'm trying to point it out. I can't believe we are actually related. Don't force me out of my comfort zones. The way that you're forcing me right now is really annoying me, though I know I must endure it to respect the ones I love. But please don't make me dislike you more than I do now. The people I hate the most, is those who pretend that they have done nothing wrong against others, those who use people just because they are richer than they are. I beg you, stop disturbing my life. 

Believe everything happens for a reason?

Yes, although sometimes the reason may be having pure luck follow you ;)

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Is your crush the same age as you?

I don't even know if he is my crush..

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Thursday, July 7, 2011

Have you watched Secret Garden's hidden and special episodes? I have the links, do you want it? ^.^

oooo, I THINK i've watched some thing like that but I'm not sure if it's the same thing. But sureeee :D alright ^^

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18 - Are you tired of all the formspring updates?

No..?

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20 - Do you use your phone alot?

Not really

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19 - How many hours a day are you on the computer?

hahahaha. Idk.. 6?

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17 - How many followers do you have?

Only 19.. people at my school aren't really into formspring..

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16 - Would you like to be a twin?

Nope..

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14 - You get a choice to dye your hair any colour, you choose..?

Dark Brown !!

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15 - Would you ever consider tinting your eyelashes?

Tinting? I've never heard such thing..

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12 - Do you have an older sister/brother?

Nope

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13 - If you HAD to have a tattoo, what would you have?

A butterfly <3 or a heart.

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11 - Do you think your gobby?

... what?

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10 - Do you use formspring alot?

Yeah, if I have alot of questions to answer :P

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9 - What is your favourite chocolate? Dark, white, or normal?

Dark <3

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8 - What age would you like your first child?

mmmm, around 26 - 29 :3 hahaha. Indonesians have this thing with having their first child at a young age

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7 - Do you support gay marriage?

I support anti-discrimination.. so I guess yes

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6 - Ever set/had your hair set alight?

Nope

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5 - Have you ever cut your own hair?

YES. O_O and it was a disaster!!! I was teased for a whole week :(

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4 - How old is your bestfriend?

17 turning 18 this year. Hahaha. We had a discussion on this..

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3 - How many languages do you speak?

3 - English, Indo, Javanese

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2 - Do you believe in love?

I do, because my parents are the living proof :3

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1 - One thing you would like to learn?

There's many things that I would like to learn (: But I can't think of something now..

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Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Merry have u watched Heartstrings? OMG the guy from Secret Garden is there, too! The Action School's sunbae! :D

:OOOO really?? COOL! :D I'm watching City Hunter at the moment :3 hehe..

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if you're a girl, what do you think that i can get an ex boyfriend back? if you're a guy, what do you expect your ex gf to do to get you back?

I am a girl, and are you trying to say - "what do you think I should do to get an ex - boyfriend back" ? Lol, I'm not a fan of being so desperate to get somebody back because of my own experience. Though if I really have to answer this question, I would try to talk to the guy and if the atmosphere is tense or it's obvious that his answer is no, then I wouldn't force him to get back together with me because love / liking someone cannot be forced.. otherwise the outcome will not be pleasing.

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Monday, July 4, 2011

Anyway! The synopsis :A love story between a tomboyish woman pretending to be a man and a young food empire mogul. The man does not initially know of the tomboyish woman's true gender.So when they fell in love, he thought that he was bcming a gay! hahaha!

Oooo, hahahaha! That's like youre beautiful.. how she pretended to be a guy and jeremy thought that he was becoming gay... hahahh :3

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It's finally the holidays! :D and for my school, it's gonna last for up to four weeks! So on the weekend, I was too tired to even finish any last minute homeworks.. so I spent my weekend watching Dream High with my bro. Hahaha. At first it was so boring, though JYP's character and the couple - Pil Suk and Jason, really made me stay watching it. Hye Mi's cold character is really funny when JYP tries to teach her how to be more emotional.. hahahaha, cuz she really has no emotions! hahaha it's so funny. xD anyways, my dad a couple of days ago caught me speaking to kevin again. To be honest, I don't have any intentions of going back to him, but I got so angry that my dad accused me of trying to get back together with him. So anyways, I wanted to stop the misunderstanding between us, so I stopped communicating with kevin through facebook. I mean, it's worthless anyway. So it's been like almost two years since anything has happened between us. When I was going through that depression stage, I thought that I would never be able to forget him.. but I was wrong. 

Heart breaks, believe it or not, do get healed, only if you're willing to let it heal. The scar, however, remains in your heart, although that is not always a bad thing. That scar will remind you of how foolish you were in the past, and it lets you reflect, change and grow throughout the years. It will let you grow into a better, smarter and wiser person than you used to be. The only way to get over someone, is to simply have something else on your mind. Allow any positive thoughts to seep through your mind, so that you will slowly accept the fact that you both were never meant to be. You will also realise that you don't deserve the crap he gave you. Be patient, and the right one will come along your way. Remember that fate does exist, but it's ultimately up to you, of which paths you take in life that will lead you to your destiny. For all those girls who say - I can't live without him. Think again. Were you dead before you met him?. Girl, you're better off without him. :) So stay strong, and don't let depression ruin your life.


No no, Coffee House is more to thriller genre of drama. But Coffee Prince is a romantic drama with a very hot lead actor! Hehe. It's not a very new drama, but believe me, you're going to like it! (I hope so) Hahaha

hahahah, I'm already getting excited by the sound of it!!! :D

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I think I shouldn't suggest another drama to you since you're gonna watch 3 dramas at the same time..but seriously, if you're finished with all those do watch Coffee Prince! (If u haven't) They've got the most sexiest lead actor,Gong Yoo! :D

Hahahah! alright, I shall watch that then :3 Is the Coffee Prince the same show name as Coffee House??

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LOL! I just realized something! In Secret Garden, Gil Ra Im is 30 and Kim Joo Woon is 34, but today I read a news about Ha Ji Won (GRI) is celebrating her 34th birthday and Hyun Bin (KJW) is turning 30 this September! The casts switched their ages, haha!

Yeah~ I already knew he was younger than her in real life :P and I also found out that most korean dramas have the leading male character being much younger than the girl in reality. Just like BOF, Personal Preference, Secret Garden.. Cuz I think Korean female celebrities still look very young although they are in their late 20's or 30's , so it's okay for them to be with a younger male character as their lover in the story~ ^^

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How far would you go to get the one you love?

It's weird for me to go after a guy.. Although if I was currently in a serious relationship, and we happened to be falling out of love, then I would be willing to do anything to fix it. :3

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Ever hurt yourself for attention?

No, never.

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What is something you'd love to say to the person you hate, but wouldn't dare?

I'm so thankful that there's not one person whom I hate this year. All my enemies have been diminished in the past.. (meaning they have left the school).. :)

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Sunday, July 3, 2011

hey I'm kinda watching Dream High, too! You know I like dramas with idols right? hahaha. Taecyeon, Wooyoung from 2PM, Suzy from Min A, and IU, are my favorites!

Hahah, yeah, the show has so many singers involved! :D and JYP is awesome! :D hahahaha. he's so funny! IU and Jason (Jay Park) are my favourite <3 hehe :3 and Taecyeon is a reallyyyyy good dancer + rapper <3 hehe. But I reaaaally dont like Baek Yoon (the girl from that girl group....) she's so..... hoih...... so revenge-seeking-hater.... yeahh I can't stand her face when she appears... :\

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HAHAHA IT'S A SONG MERRY!!! girls dont like boys girls like cars and monnaaayy~~~

ohhhhhhhh... really? hahahahahahah!! maaaaaaah baaad! :P so embarrassed now... :3

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I know what's to watch next.. You've fallen for me a.k.a Heartstrings! It's been up to episode 2 (english subbed) here! :D

:O OMG! it's out already?! okay!!! I'll start watching it tooooo then! hahahha. wait... that means I'm watching 3 dramas at the same time..... Dream high, City Hunter and Heartstrings!! <3 hahahah oh well :3

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Friday, July 1, 2011

Hellooooooos! I'm finally on holidays! YAY! Now it's time for watching Korean Dramas Marathon! Bahahahha. Yeahhhh, there's so much to watch and doooo on the holidays! :D I'm currently watching Dream High and City Hunter at the same time. I haven't done reviews in ages have I? Hahaha. Anyways, I'll give you a full review of those two dramas once I've watched them completely. But so far.. in Dream High - For the first few episodes (1 - 4) I thought that this drama was really boring and not fun to watch. Because one of the girl characters was so arrogant and so hateful to her own bestfriend. I didn't understand what her relationship with the Taecyeon guy was. And everything just didn't make sense. Her dad abandoned her for some reason and went bankrupt then the debt collectors forced her to go to an Arts College to pay back her debt. And her little sister was like so weird ( I didnt KNOW if she was a girl or a boy!) and yeah. So I gave up watching it. But then my friend kept telling me how good it is and she was telling me about all the couple characters in the drama, so on the last day of exams... I finally gave it another try... and the next thing I know... is that I had watched 7 episodes in one night. O_O bahahahahhaa. That's how HOOKED I am at the moment! And you see the guy on the left? He is one of the characters on the show, and I discovered that he is actually Jay Park. =.= all this time, I hadn't even noticed... hahahahaha. Nevermind. He is one of the couples I really love. I am totally in love with his dancing skills and also his voice! Omg his voice is just so dreamy~ and so perfect~ haihhh <3 hehehe :3 anyways~ so far, I would rate this drama 7/10. I made it a little high because of the couple stories in the show, and how the show has some funny scenes. Though the thing I most hate in this drama is because the arrogant girl is having a fight with her ex - friend who turned into a monster. I hate their story to bits!! :(

Feeling nostalgic

Hi all :) I've been studying and I thought I would take a break from it. I was browsing on my Facebook history and I became very nostal...