GiKwang and the cute female baby turtle

Lee GiKwang (member from BEAST!) and this adorable looking turtle! I can't even... URGH. TOO MUCH CUTENESS FOR ME TO HANDLE! Hahahahahhahaha.

If I were in that cute baby costume of a turtle, I would have done the same thing - getting up close and personal to GiKwang and stealing a kiss from him on the cheek. Hehehe.

New shoes

HI ALL! Today my family and I went to Tiberias Melbourne to go to church~ And they asked me whether I would like to join to be a singing leader in front of everyone! and I was like :O WHAT. Hahahahahha.. I don't even know how to sing most of their songs because they are all new for me! Hahaha....... Afterwards, we had lunch in the city thennnnn went to Broadmeadows and I bought these new shoes (actually they are greyish coloured but my editing made it look green.... anyway! :D I have always wanted them for a long time now and today the whole mall happened to have massive sales! So I was able to buy these and a few pretty tops!! Thank you God for this blessing!! ^^

Ok tomorrow I have a plan! Since M2 told me that S.A (Secret admirer) sits at the back, tomorrow, I will sit near the backish and scan the room for anyone stealing glances at me!! Mwahahaha! I just love being an investigator :p It totally makes me miss high school moments when my friends investigated guys for me and I would investigate guys with Ash. :') Can't believe I am already half way of first year of uni! I mean like... that means it is really close of becoming a SECOND YEAR STUDENT! :O Freaky... Anywho... Wish me luck in finding out who this guy is! :D

Anger towards a friend!! >:(

Why am I like this? WHY DO I FEEL ANGER JUST BECAUSE HE HASNT TEXT ME ALL DAY?!?!?! GAH. Why do I have to be so emotional when it comes to these things. *Bangs head*. I should not care. I should NOT CARE when he comes online on whatsapp, reads my message, then ignores it and goes back offline. NO, I SHOULD NOT CARE AT ALL. But WHY DO I CARE NOW???? URGH. This is so frustrating and I have no one to tell so I am shouting at my blog to relieve my stress and share my feelings with. Huhuhuhu.. T_T

Fashion for lost people like myself

Looking for inspiration on clothing?

Well I found a great tumblr site that shows fashion for girls and guys Asian style ! :D Mwahahaha.

http://sarangsantokki.tumblr.com/

Geez. I'm still learning fashion myself :3

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Ciphering a word.

Good morning~ I woke up just now wondering where my brother had gone at 6.00 in the morning only to discover that my whole family was in the living room watching the opening of the Olympics.. Hahahha. Anyway, they invited Rowan Atkinson along and he was just hilarious just now because he was acting as Mr Bean. Hehe. Sooo, I still haven't discovered who the secret admirer is. Max is still very resistant to tell me more about him but he gave me a code to solve to find out his name and the code word is "kitty". Does anyone know how to play the game called CIPHER? This is the code I have to solve: Knpeh Bmmdq - and if anyone solves it, I would appreciate it very much! :( Max keeps on telling me that the guy is too shy to talk to me but when he gets the chance, he will. "Let destiny and time do their job" is what M2 keeps telling me. *Sigh*. Oh well, since Max doesn't want to talk about him all the time, I'll drop the subject now in front of him Huhu. Although I said - Okay I won't care about him anymore~ And I won't talk to you about him~ And he was like, Okay suit yourself. But that won't happen for him. (Meaning he will keep talking about me to Max... Hoih). 

BEAST Poster

Hello hello! Gosh I am a huge fan of the Korean group called - BEAST. They are a really talented group with their own specialities and my I add, are very handsome indeed!!! :D I love almost all of their songs but my favourite has to be "Fiction" by far! I really love their new song "Midnight" and I was super duper happy that they finally made a comeback! :D Anyway I put this poster as my laptop wallpaper :3 Shoooo HOT.

Uni Update!

Hi ! Wow okay I only have very little time to write a quick post because I really need to study after this ! :O So much things to catch up on although it is only the 4th day of university! 

Since I don't have much time to waste, here's just some interesting points that have happened in my uni life so far:

• Became friends with a guy from my Reshaping Environments tutorial named Victor. I was thinking to myself, I am gonna be here for 12 weeks x 2hours per tutorial. I might as well try and become friends with someone to avoid future awkwardness. So then I was like, "HI. What's your name?" Hahahahahahahha. Yep, that's how I roll. LOL. He was a humorous guy so we got along pretty well. Too bad I accidentally skipped breakfast and my stomach kept rumbling REALLY loudly that he was like laughing at me when I told him ! (since I couldn't deny it was me... since I was sitting pretty close to him and yeahhhhh) . Hahahahah way to set a first impression Merry! But anyway, he didn't mind and he still talked to me after class so it was all good :D Hahahaha.
• Found out my biology prac group table isn't as good as last semesters :( Everyone is local and no Asians... Only me... and they are all on their little world. There was this girl who took all the attention.. *sigh*
• Became friends with Danial again!
• Went into my Reshaping Environments Lecture and sat next to this guy. Introduced myself. His name was Joseph. Turned out to be pretty good-looking and some how mature. Found out he did national service for Malaysia and eventually discovered that he was 5 years older than I am! :O Even so, it felt attractive being friends with someone much mature than I am . (*hint hint* preparation for the future hehehe).
• Made another envi friend named Tara who kept talking when the lecturer was talking! But I felt rude if I told her to sush... And even though I was like "Yeah... Oh yeah... Yeah yeah... While looking at the lecturer" She didn't understand that I was indirectly trying to tell her that I wanted to listen to the lecturer! Haha.
• M2 confessed that he likes me a little bit. (Can totally sense him trying to cover it up / make situation a little lighter by adding "Little bit".)
• I tried to convince M1 that sister and brother relationships DO work.
• Made a random new friend near a public cafe. I was like - "Hey! Were you the girl I saw before at my biology prac class?" Now we see each other at the train station so I think we can be friends :) Her name is Sophia.
• Sophia gave me her number. I texted her on the train. Found out she accidentally gave me the wrong number. I ended up text some random who lives in Queensland! SUPER AWKWARD.
• Found out that I have a secret admirer! Who apparently has seen me around biology lectures and he was envious of my relationship with M2 because we are close. (And this guy has been friends with M2 since high school). Apparently he was like, "You're friends with Merry?? Omg I'm so envious of you! She is SO cute! And she seems very affable! And likes to laugh a lot." - My reaction: HAHAHAHAHHAHA OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I know what first impressions I give to other people and that is - "She laughs a lot." GREATTTTTT hahahahahahah. It's not my fauuuuuult! XD 
• Now I am in the process of trying to find out who this secret admirer is. 
• M2 is being difficult by not telling me who it is :( huhuhu.

So there we go, there's all the interesting stuff that has happened so far! Not in great detail but good enough!  (•̪ -̮ •̪)

Student Life

Hello~ Well yesterday I officially joined a christian club on campus called "Student Life". I initially joined because I was inspired by a friend who is one of the leaders of SL, from my Indonesian class. Her name is Bec and she loves God soooo much. I was really touched to hear all her stories that were always related to Lord Jesus. Anyway, yesterday I was part of the Student Life International Movement (SLIM) and we did outreach, which is, going out to people and telling them to join our club. I was pretty nervous at first because I was like.. I am new myself... How am I supposed to convince people that they should join? Lol.. but anyway, as soon as I started to get people to do my surveys, I started gaining confidence and apparently (according to the senior leaders) I was on a roll! Hahahahhahahaha. Well I did try my best. I smiled and laughed as usual and got a few people who were interested to join! Horray! Hahahah. A funny story was that, I was surveying a guy from Indo so I got excited, and before that, I was surveying ALL girls, and so when it was time for me to circle the gender, I accidentally circled "Female" and he was like - OOOOOOHHH!!!!! NONONONONO! and I was like.. OMG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA IM SO SORRY!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! . Then we started laughing and I was so embarrassed hahahaha. Oh well :p keke. Overall I got to meet nice people such as Rebecca (another Rebecca), Lynn, Shaun, Chris.. Harvey and Dan. 

Then me and Danial went to RMIT Mainstream (which is mixture but more locals). I was more nervous here but 2 girls came up to me (Named Bella and Rebecca [ANOTHER Rebecca again! lol]) and they were suuuuper friendly and introduced themselves to be Bec's friend! (the night before, Bec told me that she told her friend Bella to look out for me! She's so nice~) And they really did look out for me. They told me their stories about how they became Christians and it was so nice to hear that Jesus called them :D So anyway, it was a nice day overall, although it was cold and freezing and I got a headache :l but anyway... Hahahha. Toodles!

Samsung!

Ola :) I'm in a jolly good mood today! Although all I have been doing at home is doing uni-readings and cleaning the house! OH I forgot to tell you some good news! My brother got a Samsung Galaxy S3 phone! It is AWESOME! Seriously!!!!! It's better than iPhone in my opinion because the screen is bigger and it looks prettier. Some of my friends were like, "Merry, aren't you jealous that your brother, who is way younger than you, got a much better phone than you?" . Well, no I'm not jealous at all! I am very happy that he was blessed to get the phone! He is my brother, so if good things happen to him, I am also happy for him! :) Plus, he lets me play with it whenever I want, so basically it's like our phone at home (kekekeke) but it is his phone at school. We had downloaded so many apps! I finally got "Instagram"... but I haven't uploaded anything yet. Just browsing through it, my first impression was that it is sort of like a popularity-contest! Competition of the best edited photography and such. It's all very pretty but I don't think I could become popular through it hahahaha. So I'll just use it whenever I feel creative. I also downloaded "Draw something". It's so much fun! Although I suck at drawing on the phone :l (IT'S HARDER THAN IT LOOKS!) so I totally salute to those who have perfect phone drawing skills! Basically, you choose what you want to draw, and using the colours they give you, you draw it to another player and they have to guess what you're drawing! Fun :D

Medicine and Producteev

Hello hello! Long time no blog! I have basically been doing nothing at home apart from cleaning the house :l Yesterday, my uni subjects came out so they provided us with the subject overviews and deadlines and other extra readings we can do. I got excited when it came out and made me realise how geekish I am! D: Who the heck gets excited by subject resources being released early, apart from me???? No one. Hahahahah. So I have organised everything and wrote all the deadlines into the Mac application called: "Producteev". It's really good. It lets you write down all the work you need to do, and everything is pretty which is the main reason why I like it. Hehehe. It's also very easy to use and pretty neat. The only thing Apple can fix about it, is to make it less laggy if we put down a lot of -things to do- and also make the notifications pop up on the laptop screen or something , rather than being notified by email =.= 

So anyway, I have a friend, who is in Medicine... and a few days ago he told me that he wants to quit. I was like WHAAAAAT! So many thousands of students are fighting with each other to BE IN MEDICINE and he, who is already IN medicine just wants to give up like that????? The reason why he wants to give up is because he is so tired because the course is so demanding and the pressure is huge. Everything is very hard and yeah :l So I was like whoa.. okay... because he is a really smart guy seriously. He got like a high average. So if someone who got a high average feels tired... imagine someone who isn't as smart as him :\ Geez... and I thought the stuff I learn is hard.. Lol. 

Funny

Look what I found on Tumblr:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Climax

Anyway, yesterday was the climax of my friendship with M2. Like I previously wrote about, there have been some suspicious happenings between us recently and I didn’t want to add anymore drama. Well yesterday was definitely the peak of our drama. Meaning, he was indirectly asking me to be his girlfriend…. by hinting me. We were chatting on whatsapp. He starts semester 2 today and we were casually talking about uni and suddenly he asked me to get a boyfriend. So I was like, “Okay I will!!! XD” Actually you know what? I will just write down how our conversation went like from the top of my head:

M2: BUT YOU NEED TO CONSULT WITH ME FIRST…. to get an approval!
Me: Hahahahaha… Okay fine.
BUT THEN YOU NEED TO DO THE SAME when you get a girlfriend or when you’re interested in a girl!!
M2: And send me lots of pictures of him
Me: Hahaha.. oookay. Then I can call you “dad” LOL since you are making me seek your approval. Haha.
M2: What?? That’s just twisted.
Me:  Fine, you can be my brother along with Michael :3
M2: ………….
M2: BUT I DON’T WANNA BE YOUR BROTHER!!!!!!
Me: Why not? :(
M2: Because that means I’m friend zoned.
[My reaction = WHAAAT DID HE JUST SAY!? :O]
Me:  Hmm but I don’t mind if we become brothers and sisters…
M2: But then we can never go out…
[OMG WHAT.]
Me:  What do you mean? Of course we can still hang out in the city!
M2: No… that’s not what I mean… Just hanging out... that's just lame..
Me:  Then what is your definition of “we can never go out”?
M2: I mean… go out as in date… GO OUT FOR A DATE!!!
Me:  Oh…. Well I’m sure you will find a better girl than me to go out on a date…
[HINT HINT]
M2: …… Are you sure?
M2: …. What if I don’t?
Me:  I’m sure you will. You do medicine… that is very impressive. I’m sure you will find a girl easier…
M2: What? But that’s not me….
M2: she only likes me for my profession?? That’s just sad…….
[I wanted to test him... Meaning, if he leaves me, I’ll be ready and I will be absolutely fine.]
Me:  In the meantime, I don’t mind being your “temporary” girl – friend.
M2: What…. that’s sad… since you know it’s going to be temporary….
[OMG WHAAAAT! HE IS ACTUALLY RESPONDING!?]
[AND WHAT DOES HE MEAN BY SOUNDING DISAPPOINTED????? HOIH.]
Me: Once you get a girlfriend, I’ll let you go.
M2: Awwww….. You’ll let go!???
Me: Lol... Okay goodnight :)

Yeah end of convo. I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow :l I hope he will just forget about this all… I think if he keeps on insisting for us to get together, I will just have to be upfront. Meaning… I will tell him straight to his face that we can’t be together. Lol. Kay bye~

Excited for semester 2 and more feelings.

As I am writing this, I really do hope my dad doesn't barge in my bedroom to tell me to turn off the internet and go to sleep! PLEASE DAD, I HAVE 8% LEFT TO GO with this stupid torrent :( huhu. Anyway~ I am actually excited for next semester! I did have thoughts of : "Haih... How will I make new friends next semester in my new classes with no one I know of?" but then I reflected on my past and I realised how blessed I am since I received so many new great friends in semester 1. Although I know that they weren't easy to get. In fact, the majority of the friends I have now... it was I who smiled and initiated a conversation first. It took effort and bravery. But next semester... won't every one already have their own friendship groups and all ? Mmmm.. Well I guess I will have to put that thought aside and have courage to repeat what I did in semester 1. After all, the outcome will be positive anyway! New friends and new experiences :)

(OH WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT! THE SPEED OF THE TORRENT IS 80kB/s!!! THAT IS A RECORD!! It was going 2kb/s before! Hahahhahaa. Oh wait.. It's gone back down to 17kb/s. (-_-).)

Ahem. Sorry for that random outburst. Anywho, I was so bored that I was going through all of the pictures that I downloaded from tumblr in my folder and this one above caught my eye~ It's so nice right? It's from a Chinese drama if I'm not mistaken. I hope my "jodoh" or soulmate will come by soon~~ Like a hot Christian would be nice. XD hehehe. Oh speaking of all this... You know what M2 called me a few days ago? - Darling. THAT'S RIGHT. DARLING. I was like, WHAT THE........... So I was just like... hahahahhahahahahahaha wowwowowow I am your darling now is it? . But he never replied. So I was like - good. Because I don't intend to respond seriously to that. 

Also about a week ago, I was telling him (more like hinting him) that he should get a girlfriend next semester since he's in medicine and all, it should be easier right... Maybe.. haha idk. Anyway, and he was like: "So will you be my girlfriend then?" And I was like WHAAAAAAAAAAAT! In my head. It kind of took me a few minutes to calm down. Then I answered, "You're just joking right." and he was like, "Hahaha." followed by, "See, it's not easy to get a gf." I'm not actually sure whether he was joking or serious or whatever... but I stopped myself from interrogating further because I don't want to cause any problems. Problems, meaning.... what if he actually confesses or something???? I don't want to be stuck in a situation like that! D: Another thing, I just can't be with him. I don't feel the sincerity from his heart. I know before, he has joked around a lot but he said something that has completely changed my thoughts about him. Which previously, I was so close of thinking, maybe I could give us a try. But I wanted to test him before I proceeded, so I said to him, "Why do you talk to me so often? Don't you get bored of me?" and he answered something like, "If I get bored of you, I'll ignore your texts. So you better keep entertaining me. Hahaha" . From this statement, I was reassured that this guy would be dangerous to be with in a relationship. The whole sentence is wrong. "You better keep entertaining me." Already pressures me to please him. "If I get bored", already states that if I was in a relationship with him, he would leave me and that would lead to divorce. No. Just no. That was when I restrained myself from texting him too much. So at the moment, I am trying to get use to not texting him or receiving anything from him. Because I know that he's not the one for me. And I wish to no longer waste time with a guy like that. Like the image above, I totally agree with it. I don't think M2 would ever cry for me. Even when he told me he was disappointed that I cancelled our "date", he tried to cover up his disappointment by making it as a joke and adding that he didn't take it seriously. Like excuse me? Hoih. Anyway, day by day I get annoyed at him, but you know what? I think it's better this way.

Torrents

NEVER. EVER. CHOOSE  TO DO TORRENTS. I have been waiting for more than 5 hours now, to download ONE episode ! URGH ! BIG MISTAKE . Now it's 11.39PM and the thing is estimating it will take another 5 hours. It's on 90% . GAAAAH ! I will never ever choose torrents. I have 50MB to go, which, if I had downloaded the episode like from media file or something, it would only have taken me another 12 minutes :(

Hot Christian Guy

Good evening peeps~ Melbourne weather has gotten colder and colder that my nose freezes if I don't turn on the heater :( I don't have much things to update ... not much has been happening in my life~ But I will start university semester 2 on the 23rd this month and so I will update when there's note-worthy news :) Since anyway, I will have new classes and so I have to make new friends..... (Fingers cross for a hot Christian guy to come my way soon! Hehehe)

Fate, Destiny and My Future Part 2

Fate, Destiny and My Future Part 2

Alright, so a few days ago I kind of told you brief stories on M1 and M2... How I met them, how I feel towards them and what I think is keeping us apart. Well this post is going to be on why I think something is keeping us that way.

I believe in fate and destiny. I believe that we are given a choice to choose a path, and through that path is our "already-made" destiny. I also believe in God whom has blessed me and my beautiful family and still continues to do so. He has done many wonders in my life and I don't care whether other people oppose to my view, but in my opinion, we live to serve Him. Sure, we have a life on this Earth... but it has come to me that the meaning of life is to get ready for the next. Yes, I also believe that there is a heaven and a hell. 

When my parents wouldn't allow me to go out to the city with M2, I was pretty angry and I laid in bed... thinking for a very long time. I grumbled.. thinking my life was not fair and etc. Suddenly something struck me. I realised that something like this  hasn't happened to me only once. Whenever I want to get closer to any guy, something will ALWAYS block the event from happening. Whether it's the weather, my parents or whatever. For example, with Kevin, our relationship didn't turn out right, with Frank.. there were always excuses for us to never work out, with M1, he is always interested in another girl.. and M2, well.. we have a huge difference in opinions when it comes to religion. You see, he is an Atheist. I don't think my parents would ever accept that and myself... I don't think I can be with a man who doesn't love God as much as I do. We would always argue in the future if our relationship became more serious than it is.

Now that I have thought it through, I believe that everything happened for a reason. God knows what is best for me. Only He knows, who is the best partner for me. So you know what... instead of fussing around and worrying about my future or worrying about whether he is the right guy or whether we will last... I will have faith in Lord Jesus because I know that God will take care of me and he will choose who is the best for me :) So in the meantime... I will keep my friendship with M1 and M2 and if we aren't fated to be together, then things will not work out in the end but if we are fated to be the best of friends, then I am also fine with that :) Ahhhh, feels so good to release all of that !! 

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