As I am writing this, I really do hope my dad doesn't barge in my bedroom to tell me to turn off the internet and go to sleep! PLEASE DAD, I HAVE 8% LEFT TO GO with this stupid torrent :( huhu. Anyway~ I am actually excited for next semester! I did have thoughts of : "Haih... How will I make new friends next semester in my new classes with no one I know of?" but then I reflected on my past and I realised how blessed I am since I received so many new great friends in semester 1. Although I know that they weren't easy to get. In fact, the majority of the friends I have now... it was I who smiled and initiated a conversation first. It took effort and bravery. But next semester... won't every one already have their own friendship groups and all ? Mmmm.. Well I guess I will have to put that thought aside and have courage to repeat what I did in semester 1. After all, the outcome will be positive anyway! New friends and new experiences :)
(OH WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT! THE SPEED OF THE TORRENT IS 80kB/s!!! THAT IS A RECORD!! It was going 2kb/s before! Hahahhahaa. Oh wait.. It's gone back down to 17kb/s. (-_-).)
Ahem. Sorry for that random outburst. Anywho, I was so bored that I was going through all of the pictures that I downloaded from tumblr in my folder and this one above caught my eye~ It's so nice right? It's from a Chinese drama if I'm not mistaken. I hope my "jodoh" or soulmate will come by soon~~ Like a hot Christian would be nice. XD hehehe. Oh speaking of all this... You know what M2 called me a few days ago? - Darling. THAT'S RIGHT. DARLING. I was like, WHAT THE........... So I was just like... hahahahhahahahahahaha wowwowowow I am your darling now is it? . But he never replied. So I was like - good. Because I don't intend to respond seriously to that.
Also about a week ago, I was telling him (more like hinting him) that he should get a girlfriend next semester since he's in medicine and all, it should be easier right... Maybe.. haha idk. Anyway, and he was like: "So will you be my girlfriend then?" And I was like WHAAAAAAAAAAAT! In my head. It kind of took me a few minutes to calm down. Then I answered, "You're just joking right." and he was like, "Hahaha." followed by, "See, it's not easy to get a gf." I'm not actually sure whether he was joking or serious or whatever... but I stopped myself from interrogating further because I don't want to cause any problems. Problems, meaning.... what if he actually confesses or something???? I don't want to be stuck in a situation like that! D: Another thing, I just can't be with him. I don't feel the sincerity from his heart. I know before, he has joked around a lot but he said something that has completely changed my thoughts about him. Which previously, I was so close of thinking, maybe I could give us a try. But I wanted to test him before I proceeded, so I said to him, "Why do you talk to me so often? Don't you get bored of me?" and he answered something like, "If I get bored of you, I'll ignore your texts. So you better keep entertaining me. Hahaha" . From this statement, I was reassured that this guy would be dangerous to be with in a relationship. The whole sentence is wrong. "You better keep entertaining me." Already pressures me to please him. "If I get bored", already states that if I was in a relationship with him, he would leave me and that would lead to divorce. No. Just no. That was when I restrained myself from texting him too much. So at the moment, I am trying to get use to not texting him or receiving anything from him. Because I know that he's not the one for me. And I wish to no longer waste time with a guy like that. Like the image above, I totally agree with it. I don't think M2 would ever cry for me. Even when he told me he was disappointed that I cancelled our "date", he tried to cover up his disappointment by making it as a joke and adding that he didn't take it seriously. Like excuse me? Hoih. Anyway, day by day I get annoyed at him, but you know what? I think it's better this way.
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